i am looking for friends that dont care if i am a little off. i have had a couple rough spots in my life. i lost a family. my two kids were adopted in montana. george and jullene will always be my babys. i miss them at times but i have to live on the best i can.

I am not perfect and i dont expect anyone else to be. there is only one person that should judge me and he is not even alive.

My mom and dad got divorced when i was 7 years old. i was born in iowa and raised in washington. After my mom divorced she met a man named michael and he proceeded to molest my sister and i for 5 years. I was put into foster care when i was 12.

My foster parents were really nice and they treated me and my sister just like there own. i still keep in touch with them. I started smoking cigarettes when i was 12 and i started to smoke pot when i was 16. that was my first mistake.

I signed a contract with the state of washington when i was 18 stating that i would stay and graduate from high school. I was in 11th grade. after i graduated i worked at a mcdonalds for about a year. The guy i was with was addicted to pot and after a while he started to throw my dishes around the house. that is when i moved to montana the first time.

I moved to montana because my mom and my sister live here. I lived with my mom for about a year and i felt like i was 12 years old again because her husband believes that as long as you live with them you do to him what you would do to your boyfriends i could not stand that anymore.

That is when i met my ex husband, i tryed to get into the army but was only in for 19 days before i found out i was pregnant. i stayed with my ex for 4 years and i had two kids. We traveled all over the us staying for about 3 months in each area. With my addiction to drugs and drinking i soon could not keep the kids and my ex would not hold a job so i relinquished my rights to the kids and got divorced from my ex.

After i got divorced i went to washington. i met a guy there that i started to date but he was into the meth and got me into it too. i have now been clean since july 7th 2008.

When i quit the drugs i met a navy man and dated him for 3 months but soon found out that we were better off as friends. I then moved back to montana.

I have now been goinmg to aa meetings.

Now that i am clean and sober i think i am a good person i have my ups and downs but everyone does lol. i am just human i have made lost of mistakes in my past but i am trying to do the best i can for today. Just want to chance to prove i am me.

My man madnezz has made me the happiest lady and i am now home!