I'm a fairly complex person...a professional by day pierced tatted freak by night. I like living my life on the edge...not to mention I am very spontaneous. I am a nice mixture of smart and sexy...however, that combination makes me a busy lady with a lot on her plate. I work full time handling litigation files for the trial division of a Fortune 500 company. I have 4 degrees now (just call me doc) and I am getting ready to work on more as we speak... I am the mother of a beautiful little girl and she is definately ..1 in her mother's life. I am married now to a wonderful man...he is the male version of me...so much so it is kinda scary. I have two sides as just about everyone does. I am layed back fun mommy and when the time is right, I'm the bitch you love to hate and hate to love. I have tons of acquaintances but only a handful of true friends that know me inside and out. My views on life and sex and everything else in between are far from the mainstream. I love people and try not to judge.I am looking for some friends with take charge personalities (like mine) -- people who can handle my very dominant personality. I have somewhat of a freaky side, sort of a professional librarian type by day, goth vixen by night.

I must warn you... I am difficult. I like it my way or no way at all. I like to talk. A lot. So be prepared to listen. Im 5'9 (I think) and bulletproof. Everything happens for a reason. Despite my smile, And my smart ass ways, I'm usually falling apart on the inside. I like to shop. And of course my style is expensive. It may look vintage, but it is high priced. I'm hard to please. I like to tan and have my nails done. I drive too fast, talk too much and put my nose where it doesn't belong. But at least I care. Or do I? I listen to my music loud and proud and I sing a long with every song I know, even if I don't like it. I like to ride with the windows down. Even when it's cold. After I form an opinion, good luck on trying to change my mind. I don't care if there's more to the story than what I've heard. There's only one person I've ever known that I've compromised myself for. I'm mean. If I don't like you, I'm most likely going to talk bad about you. I won't say anything too mean. My most famous is I hope she falls in a hole and breaks her ankle But don't worry, you won't be the topic of my conversations for long. I'm likely to hold a grudge though. But here is the plus, I'll get bored with you after a while. Some like to call me a walking contradiction. I won't deny it a bit. But it can be a turn on. Don't lie, if I wasn't a little bit crazy you wouldn't love me. Just because I can do it, doesn't mean you can. Double standard? I know. It sucks, doesn't it? I'm greedy. I work hard for my money. I'm materialistic. I'm hardcore. But I do break. And when I do, it's all over the place. You most likely won't see me cry. But if you do, you'll know it's between us. And it stays between us. I'm completely random. But I think random is a nicer way of saying that I am easily distracted. I've got a lot on my mind. I'm probably one of the biggest kids you'll ever meet, but I am also probably the most responsible 27 year old you'll ever know. I'm independent but I'm needy. I've worked hard to get to where I am. So if I feel you pulling me down, I'll cut you off in a heartbeat. I'll be there when you need me. I'll be there when you don't. And I won't expect much back. If you can make me feel 12 again, I'll love you forever. Even after your gone. You'll leave too. They always do. I can pick up the pieces of my own broken heart. I've done it a thousand times. And I'll do it a million more before I die. Victorija and Ben are all I live for anyway. Ben is my muse --- Victorija is my heart. I don't ask for much, just everything you have. I'm never satisfied. You say it like it's a bad thing. I don't think so. I'll just keep striving for bigger and better. If you want to settle, that's fine, I won't ask you to come with me. More for me when I get there. I'm crazy. But if you make me love you, you'll love me for being crazy about you. I'll mess with you head. Push you to the edge. But I'll always pull you back in before you slip away. It's part of my charm. Don't put anything past me. I'm not scared I think I thrive off the shock factor. I don't like to be bored. And I don't like to be alone. If I ask you to listen to a song, don't talk during it. Both music and poetry are very important to me. I listen to songs that touch my heart. I write poems about things that touch my soul. So if I'm sharing either one with you, I'm attempting to show you who I am. Or who I can be. Or even who I want to be. I'm nervous. But I'm not scared to speak up, even when my voice shakes. I worry. Constantly. I'm jealous. I'm cocky and convinced. Conceited, but insecure. I don't have many regrets. Because each mistake led me to where I am right now. A lot of people have hurt me, I've hurt a lot of people. I don't have a certain trend. I don't normally follow trends. Unless I really like it. And when I like it, I'll keep it until it's out of style and then back again. I expect a lot from myself. So, I'll expect a lot from you as well. I don't need any more friends. I've got all I need. And I don't need your criticism. I've done just fine thus far without it. Don't think you can save me. I refuse to be your project. I don't need your pity and your advice. If you don't like me. Then I don't care. This is me. Take it. Or leave it.