I have finally moved back to Vermont..I am single again and need a serious change in my life..I am 35 freaking years old and feel like a cross between a kid scared of life and an old person with many regrets and fears still instilled inside me..I cannot find a job and I am involved in another court battle with someone who terrorized my children..I am trying to build my life..not have to defend myself to every God damned rumor or bullshit lie that my so called friends like to spread about me..I have endured abuse and ridicule and I am tired of feeling like I can't get this right..