Well I was having such a great nap today....which was cut short by a phone call i really didnt care to have. The doctors have called us in this thursday for an ultrasound...while finding out what the baby is is very exciting this visit is either going to change my life forever or keep it the same. Turns out the blood work i had done recently has come up positive for down syndrome. We go thursday to veryify if the baby has it or not. I dont know what to think everything is still a blurr right now...like its not registering in my head. its odd how one phone call can change everything. Things in life seemed to be great..at first...then dan gets layed off and thats a blow to the gut....but this...well it just tops it off. Hopefully everything is going to be ok. reguardless if the baby has it or not we are still planning on keeping him/her. I realize this is going to be hard...but dismissing the problem would be even harder and completely devestating to me. Therefore im tieing the pieces of my heart together and holding out hope that everything will be fine and that i will be strong enough to provide for this baby. Merry freaking christmas everyone.
