WELL FIRST TIME IN AWHILE SINCE I ACTUALLY TOOK THE TIME TO BLOG ANYTHING... JUST WANTED TO VENT FOR A CHANGE OTHER THEN SITTING HERE DOING NOTHING.
THIS PAST 5 MONTHS HAVE BEEN CHAOS FOR ME,TO BEING DIAGNOSED DIABETIC TO MY SON HAVING ISSUES WITH LISTENING TO ME, TO MY SISTERS OLDEST DAUGHTER BEING PREGNANT AT THE AGE OF 15 AND ANOTHER NIECE PREGNANT BUT ATLEAST SHES 18. SO BEEN TRYIN TO GET EVERYTHING SITUATED.
GOOD THING IS MY HEALTH IS GOING GOOD. MY DIABETIS IS UNDER CONTROL AND FROM THE DIET IM ON IM DROPPING MUCH NEEDED WEIGHT. HEY IM A BIGGG GIRL AND I KNOW THAT BUT SOME STILL FIND ME SEXY AND ATTRACTIVE ( IF ONLY I CAN CONVINCE MYSELF OF THAT) MY SELF ESTEEM DID GO UP ALIL BUT NOT ENOUGH FROM WHAT IM BEING TOLD FROM MY FRIENDS BUT THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO SAY THAT TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.
MY KIDS ARE OUT OF SCHOOL IN 5 DAYS OMG WHAT AM I GONNA DO THEY ARE GONNA DRIVE ME NUTS. CANT WAIT TIL NEXT YEAR ALL 3 OF MY KIDS WILL BE IN SCHOOL AND I CAN FINALLY HAVE TIME TO MYSELF AND GO FIND THAT JOB THAT I WANTED TO GET(WHATEVER THAT MIGHT BE BY THEN LOL).
MY LOVE LIFE STILL IS IN A SLUMP. REALLY TOOK TO SOMEONE AND WOULDNT MIND MORE WITH HIM IF I HAD THE CHANCE BUT SCARED TO. AFRAID I WILL GET HURT AGAIN LIKE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE. I ALWAYS TELL PEOPLE WHO WANT TO MEET ME AND GET TO KNOW ME, IM JUST DAMAGED GOODS NOT WORTH PUTTING YOUR TIME INTO( SOME LEAVE IT AT THAT SOME DONT) BUT THEN IT FIZZLES OUT. ONCE I DO START GETTING CLOSE TO SOMEONE I PUSH MYSELF AWAY( IM SUCH A DORK). BUT ANYHOW THATS JUST ME
OK WOW THINK I SAID TO MUCH HERE THAT I DIDNT INTEND ON SAYING IN THIS BLEH VENT. SO GONNA STOP TYPING AND JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT. IF YA READ THIS WANT TO TALK TO ME GO FOR IT. ILL TALK TO ANYONE. JUST KNOW IM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING IF THINGS HAPPEN THEY HAPPEN.
