average joe's blog: "untitled"

my days are dark, and my nights are darker. my world is crashin, I feel like slashin. I'm on the edge I want to jump off, I'm on a downword spiral. I pray for impact.

I tried to get drunk and pass-out.

just so i couldnt feel the pain.

Pictures of him loveing you,

was more then i could stand.

It played over and over in my head.

       chorus

So I downed a shot,

took a swig, just

so I couldnt feel the pain.

My bags are packed and by the door.

It's all I can do not to hop a train and

come to you. But i remember promises made

that the only thing keeping me from you.

       chorus

So I downed a shot

took a swig just

so I couldnt feel the pain

So  I downed a shot.......took a swig just so i couldnt feel the pain.

As some of you might know,I am the care giver for my dad.He is 65 years old and dieing from copd,its a very slow death.He has gone fom being able todo everything in november 08 to hardly being abl to make it to the bathroom.I am on here mostly at night but am on sometimesdureing the day.i dont always get to respond as quickly to people as i like,but my pop keeps me quite busy dureing the day...ok just so you all know im not ignoreing you.....

You woke up this morning......getting ready for your big day.

rushing here and running there.Trying to make sure everythings just right.

you have no time or daddy.

i stand on the sidelines,with tears streamin down my face,remembering yesterdays little girl,that only a short time ago

would sit on my lap and fall asleep.

I look at you now and wonder where's daddy's little girl. your all grown upand ready to start a lie of your own.

baby please.....let me be,come on and set me free.

why wont you turn loose of me,cut the ties that bind.

you say you love me....then let me spread thesewings

and fly away.

one of these days......you'll wake up, and realise

you been holdin on. to what has been....but is no more.

you say you love me.....

then let me spread these wings and fly away.....

baby please let me be....

 When i close my eyes.....I dream of you,doesnt matter the time of day. Thoughts of you run thru my head.

I have known you for a short time now and our paths have never crossed...I am waiting for the day.......it doesnt matter,morning noon or night...thoughts of you run thru my head.