Endless nights and hellish days, leaving me within a haze.
My river of tears has just begin, watch me end this world’s fun.
I’m on the inside looking out, trying to figure all this out.
You’re left out looking in, catch my tears from within.
Confusion haunts my every thought, leaving me wishing I forgot.
The paina nd torment will never leave, leaving me wanting not to believe.
Your lies have killed me inside out, what’d you think I was about?
Fairy tale endings conclude with Prince Charming, all those tales send me arming.
I arm myself with a learned ease, the pain that brings me to my knees.
My world has shattered twice in two, I know not what to do.
I loved you once, I loved you twice, this final time had made it thrice, my empty heart will have to suffice.
Empty lies and promises of nothing, my only answer seems to be cutting.
The pain devoures me inside out, I hate wondering what you’re about.
I’m screaming out for your help, all you hear is a single yelp.
A single hand I need to hold, never have I been bold.
It seems like I’m living a lie, I’ll disappear and hope to die.
I pull myself in with a learned ease, I won’t let you push me to my knees.
If anyone does that it’ll be me, I wish this world would let me be.
Let me die by myself, I’ll turn myself into an Elf.
Small and un-noticed, that’d be me, all my pain I shall flee.
I hate myself for what I’ve become, my pain will no longer be your fun.
I’ll take myself and hide away, I cannot keep my tears at bay.
My release comes with a simple cut, a small incesion within my gut.
I’ll watch the stream turn to a river, I’ll quake and tremble and start to quiver.
A simple cut, so clean and deep, I drop the blade and start to weep.
The skin has torn just like my soul, I’ll catch the blood within a bowl.
The empty bowl fills up to fast, I cannot show my inner cast.
Numb and accustomed I’ve grown to pain, I look to you for the blame.
You enjoyed cutting me down, at my funeral will you frown?
Will you think I’ve made a mistake? I hope your eyes with tears shall bake.
You killed me slowly inside out, what the hell are you really about?