With the pain that is in my heart as I try not to fall apart.. I once again made the mistake and started to love again.. What was I thinking that it will all work out that all that matters is what is in your heart.. Haaaa I say its all a mystery in so many ways.. Does everyone deserve to be loved?? Or is love like a precious dove..
Things come and things go and once you notice your all alone.. But this time its different and brought me to light.. That I will not longer put up fights.. I will resend and back away yet once again.. Love is no longer on its way.. It cause to much pain and misery.. Leaving me bleeding internally.
For once I realize its time for me to stand alone and stay alone as no one can comperhend me until I grow old.. For over 10 years I have waited for that special someone.. But all I got was a bunch of dum ones..
Wasted 7 1/2 years of my life trying to hold on to what was the love of my life.. Haaa I say as he cheated on me day after day.. Was I an idiot to stay..
Then there was the next who thought that I was second best tried to take me for a ride but dammit I new that there was a chick on the side.. Held on for two years and he still broke my heart left me for her without even a doubt.
Now I sit here and thinking to the present and see that those that did me wrong call me and want me when things tend to go wrong.. Haa now that all else fails now I'm good enough to cheer you on.. I was your women you where my life and all you did was take me for the flight of my life. I will never be taken for a fool once more.. If this is what you wish for well let me help you and show you the door..
Some might think I'm bitter some think I'm great but I just made honest mistakes.. My heart still suffers my eyes still cry.. My life is mine..
