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What are you waiting for?
For so long I have had these struggles and I have waited and hoped for something to just give. I have pushed through everything being thrown at me and I have learned some hard lessons. Sometimes it is the ones that we want the most that hurt us the deepest. Sometimes we are blinded as to what someone is by the ideas of what we want them to be. Just because we may want something in our lives so badly, and we just dont wait for the right time for it to come along, instead we try to make it happen. This is when things break. We can not control others thoughts, feelings, desires, or actions and all we can do is to take a new path in life and adapt and change. I learned to see the signs no matter how much it hurt and to accept that I WILL get what I wish for in my life. All I have to do is wait and let it happen naturally. Just when I'm not paying attention and I decide to fully focus on just me and what I need to do in life, along comes beautiful. Unexpectedly somehow comes a great blessing and such fabulous thing and finally.... it happened.. The something that I needed to finally give, gave. It all fell into place and it couldnt be better. I held to my beliefs and I didnt fall to the feet of hardship and pain, instead I faced it head on and I gladly accepted it with open arms and the happiness for my struggle knowing that at some point this would come. .... and it did. So, here I am and it is wonderful. I keep in mind everyday this... that when we surrender to what is meant for us and stop trying to create what should not be and we fully let go of our ego then the change we make can be felt throughout every life we touch no matter how small the ways. This unexpected... makes my heart smile. I need that... and I'll hold onto it and never let it go.
