Under the Rug
A monster lives inside your room that no one will talk about
Try to keep it hidden, but there isn't any doubt
He's there, all covered with hair, blanketed with blame
Just look away, look straight ahead, and never speak his name
Daddy wouldn't let you cry, wouldn't let you show your fears
Mommy wouldn't pacify, wouldn't wipe away the tears
Daddy don't come home at night, Mommy's heart is growin' cold
She cried herself to sleep each night but never told a soul
(Don't think about it)
Under the rug you sweep it all, no one accepts the blame
(Don't ever talk about it)
Under the rug you keep it all, beneath your shag of shame
You struggled with your youth, just crying out for some affection
But no one seemed to notice you or offer you protection
Nobody wants to get involved, just mindin' their own business
Although so many watched you fall, there never was a witness
(Don't even think about it)
Under the rug you sweep this, too, remnants of regrets
(Don't ever talk about it)
Under the rug you keep this, too, pretending to forget
No one can see these dirty things if you
Keep this all
Sweep this all
Under the rug
Now grown, you cannot feel your pain for fear of being wrong
To keep it all inside is just your way of staying strong
But no one knows how much you long to be the one who's weak
And say for once what you really feel if you knew the words to speak
Now silence seems your only friend as you push down all the hurt
Never lift the rug to see that ugly pile of dirt
Ignore it, it'll go away--vanish into the mist
If we don't feel and we don't say, then problems don't exist
Oh, you've fucked up again, but you know they'll bail you out
Bandage up your brain again, take all the bad thoughts out
(Don't even think about it)
Under the rug you've swept it all--it's growing, it's rising, so hard to ignore
(Don't ever talk about it)
Under the rug you've kept it all--fibers of failure rise up from the floor
(Don't even think about it)
Under the rug, you've swept it all, no escape now--you're trapped by this mound
(Don't ever talk about it)
Under the rug you've kept it all--try to jump over but
Fall
Right
Down
Under the rug
You've swept it
~by Nikki, 1/25/08