I search for words to express myself but they all seem meaningless, sometimes my emotion so great that describing it is almost impossible. My mind wonders from one thought to the next without even allowing myself to ponder one from the other..they become distorted and confusing until i unconciously question every direction i may take. I often wonder if what i say is even understandable, if anyone out there can even connect to the emptiness in which i feel. I know that we all feel similar things from time to time but we all have that nothing inside of us..that one specific hole thats filled with moments and memories of situations that have changed us..the un-named powerless concoction of life that lingers. This is the one thing we keep locked up and hidden away from society..from the people we love..and sometimes even from oursleves. Im speaking about that raw, untouched and unmasked definition of what we fear the most and that is fear itself. Ive allowed so many things to be decided because of this..i took the back seat while my fear led me astray..it made me weak and vulnerable , scared and bitter, angry and ashamed all to the one and only thing that could stop it and that is LOVE. Im making a decison to not fear the strongest and purest weapon i have...the most perplexed and wonderful part of myself that im so ready to share with someone and that is my HEART.
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