Nelson Thee Legend's blog: "Me"

So much has gone on in my own existence in the very short span of 33 years of life. Time after time I've gone through heartache after heartache, whether from friends, love interests or of the physical set to the very downgrading mental sets. The people whom have stood by me, know what I am, who I am and what my heart and mind truly are all about. Yet people continuously decide to take that for granted as if I am simply of piece of trash being kicked around the street like an abandoned soda can.

I can tell you right now that I have almost had enough of having true feelings. I find that women can be quite deceitful especially in not knowing what they want, which makes them look like little girls rather than the adults they are. For me, if you want to be an adult and play like an adult then be real like an adult. Don't be childish and act like a little scared girl and then back up on what was already started and lie through as many teeth as you have in your mouth. Because I can tell you, after awhile those teeth brightness will look awfully stained due to the rubbish spat out of your mouth as if you're not lying.

I am a passionate guy, I do believe in showing care. With that being said, people tend to take advantage of those whom have that very quality. I now begin to see what "ma boys" have tried to tell me all along. Seems that so many "women" like the niceness but what they truly go after is the ones who treat them badly because for them that means that they are a real man?? Somehow they feel that this asshole can and will protect them and be rough and tough with anyone whom disrespects them. Ironically that's the same person who will turn around and cheat on them without any qualms. So I've learned, no matter how many say they want a nice guy, they like the bad boys more.

All I know is, whatever love I have had has become something of complete uncertainty. The reason being quite simple... I do not believe any further that there will be someone out there for me. So with my uncertainty, I can have one outcome. I must only rely on me. At least that uncertainty is of my own making and only I can control the path which it takes. Even if I along the way get bitter. I am just done with the lies and shadiness.

Be well always.