to those of you who care here is what has happened to me
About 4 years ago I started suffering from an intense pain in my lower back and hip region. In the beginning I had gone to several emergency rooms, Urgent care etc. No one could figure out what was wrong with me. They weren't paying attention. Finally I got an MRI done June of 2006. My primary care physician as well was myself had forgotten about reviewing the test results until last Saturday. What we found was that I am suffering from degenerate spinal disease. The outcome is grim there is no cure. The pain is so severe at times that I can not walk at all or move, sit up or down or lay down. I basically am in pain no matter what.
I have tried heating/icing, massaging, special vitamins, laying on a hard floor. I have also taken so much ibuprofen that my liver is starting to suffer from it. Finally my doctor has given me percoset and I am to see her once a month. I also have to see a special doctor to find another treatment that could ease the onset of pain.
It is extremely aggressive and I am scheduled to have another MRI in the first part of January. I probably will have to have one once or twice a year. The reason this decision was decided was that when I am in pain my right leg becomes parallelized and I am unable to move it until my back pain subsides. It literally is dead.
The pain has been so severe that I stood there screaming for my roommates to help me because I could not move. All I could do is stand there.
The reason I am sharing this is because I am terrified, depressed and lost. I still have my son to take care of.
I have had kidney sto0nes, been stabbed 6 times at once, attacked by a pitbull on top of the countless other injuries that I have had. This by far is the most gruelling and painful thing yet. I wanted it to go away and now I know it will never ever go away. I am emotionally dead
If you have any advice please help me. I am lost on what to do or how to feel.
Even if you don't know me I need love and support right now. I don't care if you are a total stranger.
