Well I have never done one of these, and I want to see if it helps my frustration to get it all down here...So here goes nothing...
Tonight I am so frustrated I don't really know what to do. And it's strange because I had a great day and all of the sudden it just hit me like a ton of bricks. When will I ever get what I feel that I deserve?? I mean, I am in my opinion a very nice guy and treat everyone with respect. Why can't I ever get anything to go right for me?
I guess this is all stemming from a couple instances in the last couple days. There are a few people I talk to online all of the time. We chat and flirt and you know, the usual. Then I think things are going great and am like yeah finally, I am gonna have a things go my way. Yeah right! Why do I ever get my hopes up? The people that I think all is going good and then they act like they don't want to talk anymore, like it's a burden on them....I haven't changed me or the way I treat them. But something has changed. You can ask anyone that knows me personally and they will tell you that I am me, from day 1...what you see is what you get. Well all I ever get is being Mr. Nice Guy and getting pushed aside or stepped on, while the fucking assholes of the world keep on getting everything they want....I don't get it!
Well, I am done rambling for now, just had to get this off my chest. If anyone wants to comment on this, I welcome all opinions and criticizms. Talk to you all soon.
Tom