am soooooo freaking sick of not having enough crap to keep my mind busy!!!!!!!
Being bored staring at the walls seriously is enough to drive me insane!
I feel idle all the time. I seriously need something to do with my time. That is the only reason I get online, it stimulates my mind in more ways then TV does or the walls of this house!
I need an escape, a realse!!!!!
I hate having so much blank spots in my schedule.
People like to call me lazy but thats because there is nothing to do. I am actually a very motivated person. I hate sitting around doing nothing. I hate staring at the pc screen for hours because there is nothing else to do. I get bored soooo easily with things that I seriously need another person to keep me on task or I get bored with it fast!
There are times where I wish I was still at Dom's place with him. Atleast there I could turn on the TV and go about the house cleaning everything in site. Atleast there I could sit and watch the fish tanks and make up stupid stories about what they were saying and such, how do you think they all had to have names? lol
I am a very creative person, I need to do things that simulate my mind. I don't have the friends like I use to who you use to come up with stupid shit to talk about or weird things to do or even the things we use to make up. I don't have them around me anymore because they have gone on to bigger and better things as have I but with them they took all the mental stimulation.
There is nothing here anymore that stimulates my mind to keep my mativated and happy all the time.
Thats another reason why I hate homework, its all stuff you have to sit in front of the pc and type or read in a boring textbook, and those textbooks are so dry with the information. I work so much better when I am applying what I am learning to what I am doing or can be doing, by reading it in a textbook in my house it is like torture to me. I would so rather have detailed exciting material to read in front of me. Don't just say something like "this case is about a lady that killed her husband with a 2x4" and this was the ruling; give me some details, descriptors!!!!! Make me feel like I am one of the judges for the case sitting there watching the material being presented to me and things of that nature!
I go to my friend Dom's as often as I can because of the simple fact that there is always something to stimulate my mind going on. Sitting there watching him play video gomes is more stimulating to me then listening to my law teacher spew information in front of the classroom. Watching a movie is more fun to me then playing cards with my whole family! Hearing the birds chirp and the filters on the fish tank keep my mind more motivated then staring at the pc screen. He is someone to communicate with, one of the few friends I have left that I enjoy being around. Being at his house its relaxing and at the same time fun and enjoyable; I come home and it just feels like there is sooooo much tension in this house, people tend to make rude comments and there is just alot of negative energy and lack of motivation. I seriously hate leaving his house to come back here.
I NEED SOMETHING TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
