so things have been crazy lately...my best friend's mom passed on the 3rd...and then her cokehead brother fucked her royally just this weekend...and on top of that the guy she wants is being stupid...so i've been trying to be a great friend and be there for her...but it just seems like its always about her...and none of my other friends are around or care to include me enough to bother trying to reach to them for a hand...
i hate my job, i want to firebomb corporate and roast marshmallows over the flames...but there are no other places hiring that would accept me for me, piercings and all...and don't dare tell me "well thats life" or anything along those lines...i fucking know and thats why i haven't bothered telling work to fuck off...
seems like all my other friends are constantly "here's whats going on, come join us" on myspace about 10 minutes before they go so i've no way of planning on joining them especially without a car currently...or they don't reply when i ask for details, or they just don't bother telling me whats going on till its done and over...if i'm not out with vickie i'm home...thats it..don't get me wrong, i luv vickie to death but we both need more than just each other...
and now i'm stressing over a possible job that i probably wont get...i contacted a local radio station (my dream job is to be a radio dj) and the guy told me to send in an aircheck...thing is i dont have one so i gotta put one together...but its not like i even finished my college degree and in comparison i have very little experience to most who go out for this type of thing...there are plenty of people who think i'd be perfect for such a job and are hoping more than i am that i get it but i just cant seem to share their enthusiasm...the idea excites me to no end but then i think of what chance i actually have of getting it and my bubble just bursts...
i just need a vacation from my life...just take a step back, breathe, get my head straight so i can get shit organized and moving again...its crazy how many things can pile themselves onto ur plate in so short a time...just wish i had someone who would help share the burden or more like someone who would just support and encourage me to get through all this...
