After a night of excess of many "things"...i sit here and realize that no matter how hard i try, im going to bury myself one way or another..As i put it to my mother the other nite on the phone , with everything going on with my health...i might as well go out balls to the wall!...as they say ..last born first dead!...or maybe thats just what i say. Hey at least i had fun, The way i see it now is this...im gonna enjoy every flippen moment i have left..if its for another 20 years or 1 year...fuck it...
