Kountry's blog: "Turbalance"

You know life throws u curve all da time, and its not wut thrown your way but how u accept and deal with for the most part that count.... See for year i have been tryin to further my schoolin, and finally this last year; August 25, 2008: i wuz  enrolled at Red Stone Collage, its wuz wut i had been lookin for. I could git a degree to work on air crafts which wuz  my dream for the longest time. But finances made me take a leave of absents, and i returned home to IL to try to regroup myself, and obtain the money to substain myself once i return to CO; which i am very much so still doin and plannin on; And while here i ended a very toxic relationship, and ended up findin the love of my life; Nicole Lynn Balo; and started a very good, trustin, and lovin relationship with her. Now we r on the raoad of marrage, it looks like we might be expectin our first lil one; we r not  proof positive, but all sign point one direction;....


Now i sit here poun derin the past, the present, and future.... For the long time the only family i felt like i had wuz my grandparent:; Gurtie B Butler, and TK Claude Kennith Butler(even thought he is decise i carry his memory with me), My close friends; (simpley too many too list, but yall know who u all r) and my stepfather; Richard V. Lopez....But even with those to count, i always felt like their wuz a void, and felt un-wanted in a lot of way by family, and that left me questionin wut family wuz. I have had my closes friends tell me that family is not just blood, but more so those u look up to, trust, and more can count on to back ur ass up where hell breaks loose, and not fail or faulter....But even though i understand that, believe in it, and know wut it is..I never felt like my family wuz whole, and still dont, but with thought of havin a lil one on the way, and a wife look to me for it all, this is the closes to a whole family i have ever felt.... And enen thought i have no regrets at all!!!!   I am how ever questionin wut the day hold for me every day i wake up, and sit at times and think wut dose the next 10....20....30 years look like for me, for us.....


You always try top plan for hte shit to hit the fan, you always pray for the best, and pack for the worst of worst.....But with all this plannin, and prayin we all over look one damn ass-pect!.......Wut in the is the worst of the worst  really, and wut is it goin to be like....Cause if u stop, pull ur head out ur tail-end and think just for one dag-blame minute, yeah we all have been throught tough time, and had good time too,..BUT!!!!!!!  No matter how bad things git they ALWAYS, ALAWAY git worst, and u never know wut tommrow hold for you, fore no matter how bad the storm might git, their always will a damn cloud with a silver linnin, and for damn sure will be a brighter tommrow one of these f-in days...you just have to wait out the storm...


So simply life is a B, she git her kicks,  and giggles from f-in  all our days, but not all dose she git her laugh for the day for most of us, and its not wuts goin on, its how u deal with the shit that is happenin..... So winnie mofo heres a tissue for ur issue, and a limon squeezer for the limmons life.... oh yeah and hammer, nail,saw and baords, now u should be good... Go build a boat to float down ur cryie river or betta yey BUILD A DMN BRIDE AND GIT A F*** OVER IT, and make me some dang-dabbit limmon aid :-) and shut, cause life is not grandger for any of us either!!!


 ok that its all off my chest not, and i feel betta...Much love to every one in the world, god bless,

And remember: Psalms 37:4
"Delight thy self also in the loard, and he shall givith yee the desires of your heart"