I always forget how sensitive I am when I really put my heart and soul into something or someone..ive been really careful not to let me guard down for a while.. so i've always been somewhat detached.. until recently when i opened my heart once again.. i've forgotten how much it hurts and once again i feel as though i am in a void. empty. half me is missing. a grip on my heart. what once began with butterflies in the stomach ends with them. except these are not warm butterflies. its cold and dark. my whole mind is filled with one subject making it hard to do other tasks, let alone eat or sleep.everyone at work says i am spacey today and they would be right. i hate this. i think i should give up.
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