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Season's Changing

Storms of Summer Rain..Suttle sky's turn dark..The feelings in between..Died and Drift away..To a place so cold..Leaving me feel so alone..Coming from a broken home..Years of separation..Feelings Fade..And Season's Change..What's left is a mess..I feel so lost..So Confused..Confined within..I feel I'm Stuck..Inside a Rock..No where to go..I scream I'm done..It's Over..I'm Thru..I feel my heart..Jaded and Shattered..I am Broken.

Solitary Confinement

Locked away in a cage..My rage has got the best of me..Time finds a way each day..Leaving less and less of me behind..This fight must be won..Inside my mind..Uptight and Confined..Blinded by the light..Taking its toll on my system..Time ticks away..These last few moments..Is there anything left unsaid..I'm on a quest..Looking for safety and sanity..Searching for a piece of mind.

World As We Know It

Paper Dolls, and Plastic Skin

Borrowed Love, Lust full of sin

The flame has been lit

Putting you on slow drip

You stumble upon your needs

Running circles in your head

You've wandered onto

A Wicked Porch

With Hollow Veins

You can barely breathe

You gave birth

To your own Holocost

Burning all your Bridge's

You are your own selfish enemy

Call me Right

Call me Wrong

Tie me Up

or Let me Go!


This time you broke me down..you tore me apart and left me all alone..you spoke to me of paradise in shangri-la..I gave into all your lies..I looked at things in a different view..I changed my ways and all my life..I changed for you and you broke my heart..you said good-bye as you walked away..you said my illness was all my fault..still i don't know why..you kept taking..I kept giving..I refuse to be sad..to let it get to me..to let your words beat me down..next time i will know how to act..now this is me saying my last words..and good bye

Perfect Life

I dream of a perfect life. Simple not complicated. Enough to please me, but keep me alive. Happy to smile with no disappointments. I watch the horizon about; no words of doubt. Looking forward in anticipation. But backwards at satisfaction of the conclusion of each day. Heeding the prompts of my inner voice; and what I hear is comforting, full of reassurance. Sweet feelings of contentment. But the human soul dies, To be forgotten soon. Turning into unfamiliar faces; A blank drawn in a space, A hole left in the wake alone. Of a perfect life I dreamt, which closes cold over, and UNKNOWN.

My Core

I am easily gone and hurt to the center of my human flesh. Numbnezz takes over the pain that used to accompany my soul. Severed like the skeleton of my ancestors long ago. My words a whisper to the vengeful souls of life. A painful world of needles we live in and yet I am stuck standing like a statue of cold stone all alone in the wide open. Like a simple minded target for easy prey. No one cares enough to reach out and save me. No one even glances as they pass by. I rott in this prison of my making with each hurtful memory I continue to pile on the bricks of the invisible wall around me. Many try to break through but none are able to succeed. My heart is one of stone and coldnezz. My eyes dark and gray. My mind distant and unknown. And my soul lost to the demon far below. A bitch some call me, others venge upon the blood of those I shed. I have no breath for it was sucked clean out of me by death himself. Can I be saved? Do I still have a chance? I fear not my friends, for we are all doomed to live a life of shame.

My Breathe Ripped Away

Cold, Severd, and darkened from deep within. I can feel death draining my veins. Sucking the life I have left. My pulse weakened. My veins empty. My life gone away. Down the twisting and turning, tunneling drain. Forever gone. Always Lost. The Vengeful Severence of what is left of my self pity. Why? I scream silently inside. The involuntary tears stream like a beautiful red river, staining the floor upon which I stand. How much must I endure? All the shattering memories and the conpulsive pain come riveting back to me. I stand alone in the wide open gates of Hell...Welcoming it all with limbs of numbnezz. With a broken heart and tears of stained blood where tears once were known. I slowly give in and let it all consume the person I once was long ago.

Lost in Distance

The pages of the torn book and chapter in my life keep turning to ash. Dust to Dust. Drifting away. Nothing Left. Shutting up and leaving behind not a single clue as to what once was in my heart. The feelings are long gone. The memories a distant treasure. My heart long broken. And my life long ago torn. My soul ripped from my body and my breath taken by those who hurt me the most.


Though one memory of the past still stands. Still haunts the life I live now. Can I save it? Who knows. They say you never know what you have until it's gone. Been quite some time now and yet I know where my heart resides tho that person will and may never know. I tried to move on thinking that my chance was long ago lost and forgotten. But, maybe I am wrong. I dunno where it leads or may go. Should I risk all I have or jus let it go?

Land of Tears

Would you like to join me,
in my land of tears?

There is so much to learn here:

Love means losing, in my land of tears.
But in the process, love calms all fears.
So maybe, you feel, you'll lose it all in
the end,
But nothing compares to the places you've been.

Death is permanent, in my land of tears.
But there is nowhere to run to when it nears.
And when someone is taken, there's such pain
in your heart.
But be greatful- that someone was there from
the start.

Friendship is life, in my land of tears.
It comforts all sorrows when the darkness lears.
Forever binding and never untrue,
It will be right there, through and through.

There is so much I have learned here. Would
you like to joing me in my land of tears?

In My Eyes

When you look into my eyes,
What do you see?
Do you see the deep blue skies,
Do you see me?
When you look into my eyes,
What can you find?
Can you find dark black holes,
Or are you blind?
When you look into my eyes,
Are you for real?
Are you searching for me,
To know what I feel?
When you look into my eyes,
Can you get back out?
Is quicksand sucking you in further,
To see what I'm about?
When you look into my eyes,
Why don't you see the truth?
Why don't you notice me?
Why are you so aloof?

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