Trials and tribulations
Well we all have these though out our life’s lately I am starting to believe some of us more then others, but that’s not rally right is it? We all have the trials and tribulations of life we just have different ones. Well mine as of late seem to take me to the limit of what I can tolerate in one day. Although in the length of my 22 years I have over come and moved forward in my life as no one thought I would. It just goes to show you that we can all make it in the end on matter what we had to face in the beginning. You all are probably asking what you have had to over come to have such a view. Well for me I believe my trials and tribulations started the day I was born believe it or not. I was born 2 months early. Ya I know wow most times you wouldn’t make it depending on was the mother healthy or do anything bad during the pregnancy to harm the baby in the long run. In this is where I got lucky I believe I was meant to be here. Why do I think this? Well my mother had a problem with two things though out her pregnancy with me and my brother she liked alcohol to much and drugs too. So there in laid our impediment to making in even a day more for she had been on both the whole time and the stress placed on us that came with being born far too soon. Well I made it after months in the hospital and a million tubes and medications sadly my brother did not I was told he dies in the hospital mere hours after we were born. Well to say the least I didn’t leave the hospital with my mother. She had given me to her step grandfather a very old very mean man who got his kicks from hurting children emotionally, physically, and yes sexually all of which are impeccably difficult to over come. Well I went home with him as a baby I had no choice and no one know the kind of man he was. About the time I was two years old my next set of trials and tribulations was do to start. Can you believe two years old and forced to face more then any two year old or child should have to that’s right this man who was suppose to care for me and raise me with care decided I was the perfect target for him to get all his kicks from. I think it started emotionally with him warring me down making me believe things that I was wrong all the time and bad. Then once that was accomplished I think the last two started together the physical and sexual stuff and believe me being that young you believe what you’re told. The always having the bruises that you believe you have to hide. Because your told if they (other people find out) you will die. What are you to do then? I was almost to afraid to have friends I didn’t want them to see to know what was going on I didn’t want them hurt to, to have to face what I did, I did have some friends after all if it wasn’t for one of them I don’t know where or even if I would be here now. This set of trials and tribulations went on and on for 10 years. Till one day the friend I told you I had took the risk and told her parents who in turn notified the right people. I got out of there thanks to that friend and her family I owe them my life for that they saved me from something that would have only got worse.
So thank you all you gave me the chance of a life time and I will make something out of it. Well after I was removed from there my next set of trials and tribulations was about to start I had to lean to trust people which believe me to this day is a very hard thing for me to accomplish. I had to learn what things were simple chips or sandwiches were on known to me. I also had to learn to deal with a different kind of authority the kind that doesn’t hurt you or leave a visible mark, but is the one that helps you learn right from wrong. I also had to adjust to having a sister I was an only child Intel the authorities found my dad. This didn’t go to well for she to had been an only child. We had or issues as siblings do and didn’t get along. I had so many trials during that time adjustments, learning what was ok and that the things before were not my flat which in it self is so hard to do. As the years past and it got to the point where we where teens and at the boyfriend girlfriend stage I was so scared I didn’t what to be hurt not like before and if it wasn’t for my sister masterfully hooking me up with her boy friends brother I don’t know if I would of taken the step. Thanks sis you showed me I could do it that not everyone was the same. We I have only had a few boyfriends after that one which is ok with me because truthfully it or at least the thought of any more scares me. Well I am almost 22 now just a few more days to go. I am married and I have to wonderful children Katherine who is 3 and Hunter who is one now. So I guess you can say I got to the point in life where I could at least be able to have one. I still have some trials and tribulations I am having a hard time to over come. I can’t go out in the dark alone if I do I fill as though someone is watching me and my heart speeds up the whole time. There are some nights I don’t sleep to well and I end up staring at the wall or door were I see people if you can believe that it’s hard, but there will always be little things that never go away completely. Well I am glad my new set of trials and tribulations are not that bad. I need a loan for school and because I don’t have too much credit I can’t get one so I have been working like crazy on that and our computer is going crazy. I guess I know these are nothing compared to all the others, but do we ever get a break from our trials and tribulations of life? Does the basket ever get full or is it never ending ?
