To start, I was born June 11th, 1970 with my twin brother Robert Scott in Kingston Jamaica. At that time my father was working on an American diplomacy and we were able to stay there in Jamaica for the next nine years. During these nine years, I spent a lot of my time with my nanny Gertie who to this day is like my second mother. I would spend a lot of my time surfing and enjoying the Reggae or Ska music and the companionship of all my siblings & my island friends. Then my father's diplomacy came to an end and we got all packed up and he moved us to a little town of Pasco, Washington. I was now landlocked and couldn't wait to move away. The next few years, I spent working for our families farm, playing sports and doing the things a young man does. I then was fortunate to get an opportunity to move away to college to southern California at age of 16, where I spent the next four years. In college, I joined the R.O.T.C. program where I prepared to become a Marine Corps officer and after graduating I was able to achieve that goal. I spent the next twelve years serving my country and been through different conflicts starting with Desert Storm and ending with this latest conflict in Iraq in 2003. When I was retired due to a roadside bomb, the same incident that took my twin brother from me and my career. After going through some painful rehabilitation, I proceeded into buying a bail bonds place in San Deigo and continue pursuing criminals to be who don't go to court. I am a single daddy and I do have five beautiful children who are my life. I continue doing the things I have been doing, and being who I am. I am what I am and if you don't like it, then move on. I'm a man with honor and the loyalty that was bred into me through my parents and my upbringing, and I don't have to lie to kick it. Thank you, High Tower (Real life nickname)--- Dr Tre aka (JaH)

Its been a long time since I wrote something with some substance other then Erotica stuff, and Im thinking today I will write something on being "Judgmental" I know many of you have seen the way I am in chat. Im a free spirit who has a passion for making people laugh. I believe in making people feel good about themselves and Im also a consummate flirt. My flirting has a way of making women either feel good or making them take it a little further then I want it to go, In the later of the two, I feel I have unintentionally hurt some people and if this is the case I am sorry. However, I am tired of being categorized as a player, and or something I am not, in other words being judged. The definition of "Judgmental" by the way is something of or relating to, or dependent on judgment. Another definition would be a person who is inclined to make judgments, especially moral or personal ones. I really there isnt anyone here on Fubar who has a right to judge anyone, it is a chat site where the majority of people are full of themselves and have nothing better then to judge other people. I wont be a part of this, and I will rise above this type of morale inconsistency! I don't know about you...but it seems to me that "You're being "Judgmental" is just the modern code phrase for "I'm not getting my way". I really feel that this basically states the majority of how all people really are. You see, if a person doesnt get there way, lets say in a romantic setting, then there is a judging process of what is really going on that happens. In other words, I would think I am being played. There is always outside sources who have an opinion of other people and its these so called friends that can actually damage a relationship all through being "Judgmental!" Furthermore, It occurs to me that when someone says, "You're being judgmental" he/she is guilty of the very same thing. In other words, the person who accuses another of being judgmental is, in fact, being judgmental himself/herself ! He/she is saying: "You are being legalistic or sanctimonious, without compassion and besides, what do you know about the situation? What qualifies you to judge?" Ouch. Accusing someone of being judgmental is a serious charge to make. On the other hand, perhaps the one accused of being judgmental has truly behaved in a legalistic or sanctimonious manner and is, in fact, not qualified to judge. The thing is, we are NOT to JUDGE others. Yes, we can judge behavior. But it's a fine line between judging the person and judging the behavior! When another's behavior is clearly sinful, we still should be very hesitant to judge that person and/or his/her behavior because we too, are sinful and in need of mercy and forgiveness. I guess a person can take their chances and make judgements about others. Maybe they feel somehow qualified to do so. But based on what Jesus said, I think it's a thing to avoid. Im not a Bible thumper or anything but I do refer to scripture when I feel its other peoples opinions and how they judge me, when they contact the person I care for with their in ability to tell the untruths and bull about me to her. I again wont lower myself to such trivial stuff and or situations, and if the person I am or you are with then that person should feel that others opinions really matter, then that is a person you or I shouldnt be with. Im only speaking hypothetically, and in a broad range of emotion. In the Bible it states a little something about the right for us to judge others, which isnt our right to begin with wouldnt you agree? A little scripture for those who do judge and make up stories about others (back-stabbing) to read and let it sink in their dense minds! "Do not judge so that you may not be judged. For with the judgement you make you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get. Why do you see the speck in your neighbor's eye, but do not notice the log in you own eye? Or how can you say to your neighbor, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' while the log is in you own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbor's eye." .........Matthew 7:1-5 In closing I would like to say, I will remain steadfast in my beliefs that all people truly are good. I wont however be partial to those who feel they want to judge me, cause the majority who think they know me do not. I am a private individual who is getting tired of the games, and will be pulling myself back a little in chat and chat room discussion. Ive been on and off Fubar almost 2 years and I have seen a lot of people who are well lets just say, not even close to being real. Unfortunately I feel I have been real a little too much, and I am just now getting some old friends back on my friends list who remember me the way I was before my break up with my ex, and know I am who I say I am! I will be surrounding myself with these people cause Im sure they dont judge me, and as for the flirting and happy go lucky me, well that is fixing to be toned down. Thank you all for reading this and I hope it has brought some light on the situations that are rampant not only in Fubar, but the internet chat sites many of you may go to. Have a good day! Tre has spoken! One Love and God Bless! ~~Dr Tre~~

I'm thinking today is a good day to write about the"Fear of Commitment!" In this day and age, wouldn't you agree that it is far to easy to give up on the word commitment! The definition of the word "Commitment," is the state of being bounded emotionally or intellectually to another person or persons or an obligation to a job or friendships. I think there are many people on myspace and in real life who are commited to different values in their lives, whether it is a romantic love interests or perhaps even a good friendship or job. So why is it then that it is so easy to break that commitment or commitments? Or maybe even still there is just a feeling or emotion to "Fear a Commitment?" Is it because so many of us have had a bad relationship, or did things not go right at a job or in a friendship? There are so many excuses that could be used here that I could write a fifteen paragraph explanation on excuses of why not commit! I think that most of us just dont have the fortitude to commit cause of fear of being hurt, again.....I know I did and do! Lets again move on with my thoughts on all of this shall we? The "Fear of commitment," in much of popular literature refers to avoidance of long-term partnership and/or marriage! Secondly, the problem may be often much more pervasive which in turn will affect your thinking at school, at work, and in your home life as well. It gets even more defined when you start getting deeper into the term "Fear of Commitment," which is often most strongly apparent in one's romantic life. Generally, people who claim that they are eager to find a lasting romantic attachment and get married, fail to find appropriate partners and to maintain longlasting connections will have "Fear of Commitment!" Ironically, in these romantic relationships, the partner who fears commitment craves what he/she fears what they most want which is that very love, and a true romantic connection. This paradoxical craving for a frightening reality leads to a confusing and destructive pattern of seduction and rejection. Been there, done that! The results are almost always emotionally devastating, and is something this brother at times feels when first starts opening up to a potential love interest! Im sure many of you go through this very emotion, correct? The key to understanding this very "Fear of Commitment," is to acknowledge that such behavior is rooted in the fear itself of failing!! A fear of lost options or a fear of making poor decisions, which I think alas I know we all have experienced and have done before! The mind that dreads commitment sees decisions they make now as a permanent one, thus opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever in their minds with no means of escape. This emotion can be a real disabling fear, that can be manifested in many areas of life, including career, home ownership, or even shoe shopping and potentially a new romantic love interest! This fear can make simple every day decisions into tremendous burdens to yourself, so CowBoy Up and brace yourself for real life situations and commitments. I'm not afraid of commitment myself, even though Ive gone through so much heartache and loss in my life! I think communication on a more candid level is needed and the one thing Ive learned is being true to yourself and who you are as a partner will help eliminate most the "Fears of Commitment,"that may linger! I may have lost my "Fears of Commitment," in fact I know I have, so I am confident that I can be a better romantic person for the person I am with! I'm no expert in these particular revelations of what life really is all about, but I do know one thing, I ain't afraid of No Huckleberry, and I'm willing to go through the Trials and Tribulations that may arise, so I can commit to the one person I want to be with. God Bless & One Love!

on a cold winter morning with the winds howling in the dark i make my way out into the wilderness danger everywhere beasts prowling in the dark hungry for more prey with insatiable appetite stumbling into the dark pitfalls and danger all around i crawl out of my home into this dark, desolate forest darkness all around sunlight trapped high above the ground life was tough life was hard the journey had been chosen by my men and women before me the path is the same individual being different it was easy as a pie travel the same path (just like everyone) hop on to the bus that comes along and go where it takes you get down when its your turn i wanted to be different i wanted to live life i wanted to live my life enjoy it every moment enjoy it even if its for a minute stopping midway i turned around walked into the forest wanting to live my life i set out to make my own path the path may not lead to riches the path may not be the easy route but i dare to be different taking one step at a time i march on towards my dream my dream my life my happiness my path join me if you want for the journey has just begun and the path is still being carved out artist unknown! I was thinking bout this poem when I was pursuing yet another fucked up day in my life. Then after a few thoughts and a beating on my heavy bag---a calmness came over me and I started to look for something positive out of my life----then I looked to my children and my girl and there I found it----Solace-----and a peace that I am trying to achieve and will have someday. For now I will continue to push forward, carving my own way through this world we call Life. or I call Life rather. All I got to say to those people trying to pull me down and not wanting to find happiness---Try again----it isn't gonna work. Anyways I dont suspect anyone will read this nor do I give a fuck----I just needed to release. So I have! Dr Tre

Well, i've been doing some thorough thinking on the next subject I would like to write about and this revelation popped into my head so here it is...."Inspiration!" What is the definition of "Inspiration," and what does it mean to me as an Individual? The meaning of "Inspiration," is this...a stimulation of the mind or emotions to a high level of feeling or activity. I ponder this very subject daily in my life, as I go about my business as a father, as a friend, and as a potential companion to a woman whom I may have fallen in love with or will fall in love with. I am pretty sure a man like myself can not go through life with out any "Inspiration," when my spirit and my mind is filled with many emotions and deep reservations on where my romantic life will take me next! There is a little quote I refer to on a daily basis and actually have it printed on paper and taped to my vanity mirror to remind me of what I am all about...... "A witty inspiration is a dissolution of spiritual substances which consequently, before the sudden separation, must have been most intimately intermingled. Imagination must first be filled to the point of saturation with life of every kind before the moment arrives when the friction of free sociability electrifies it to such an extent that the most gentle stimulus of friendly or hostile contact elicits from it lightning sparks, luminous flashes, or shattering blows." Friedrich Van Schlegel Its been asked of me of the person I really am by many here on FUBAR, and I have been reserved in telling anyone of the man I am. All you have to do is read the quote I live by and the answer of who I am is right there. I'm a man who has had an opportunity to live a full life, through my upbringing in Jamaica, then a little farm in Pasco Washington, to the hallow walls of the University of Southern California, into the Marine Corps as an officer, through three tours of duty at war, the death of close family members (2 brothers & Grandfather), a long marriage ending after certain infidelities by her, the birth of four beautiful children, and to where I am today. So I can say "Inspiration," is surrounding me everywhere I look and it is through my writings I share it! So one other place I can draw "Inspiration," from in my life and I don't do this enough is through the Bible. The Bible has many verses written on the word "Inspiration," and through some of these verses I have read I find they do play a major role in my life and in my thinking. The Biblical definition of "Inspiration" may be defined as "God's superintendence of the human authors of Scripture so that using their own individual personalities, they composed and recorded without error His revelation to man in the words of the original autographs. In other words through God's grace the revelation each author received from him can be conceived as "Inspirational!" Do you not feel inspired by the truth when you sit in the old wooden pews in your church after receiving a sermon or lecture from one of your church leaders? I know I do when I do go to church cause there really is a spirit of "Inspiration" for me when I go and I listen and learn! One verse from the Bible I would like to share, and please don't think of me as a Bible thumper cause I am not....refer to some of my other Blogs you will and can see this, but none the less a verse I frequently look at is in......John Chapter 3 Verse 16 it reads like this...... "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever beleiveth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." If the previous Biblical verse isn't "Inspirational" to the majority of us who live around the world today I don't know what is! It is my opinion that the sacrifice that was made on that cross that sacred day is as "Inspirational" as they come. I'm sure that this sacrifice that was made for Christian individuals should stand as their own definition of what "Inspiration" means. So there you have it a diverse view on what I think "Inspiration" is and what it means to me on a daily basis! I truly love to write about various subjects and its again through these writings I hope to "Inspire" those of you that read them. Im a simple man but I am a good man, and think I may have clarified some of what makes this man tick and how I live! So tell me through your comments left here.....What this subject means to you, and have I tweaked your thinking a little when it comes to the definition of "Inspiration?" God Bless and One Love! ~~TRE~~

What is Love? So much to think about, so little time to put it all down on well lets say script. I was going through my head and a particular subject kept chiming in. The meaning of "True Love?" What is Love and how does it effect the very outcome of each and every one of our lives? In my opinion the word "Love" can mean so much but let me break it down for you-- The word Love can represent a broad range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction. I think as one goes through a courtship with someone that he/she may be interested in, these feelings slash emotions that run through he/she can vary from the want and need to be with this person all the time or the little things that you want to do for this person and the great pleasure it gives you when you do. With this being written, let's continue to break the word Love down so we can now refer to a vast array of different feelings, states, and attitudes. All of these previously stated range from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states. In other words you really can't control how you feel, you just got to be able to accept it and have faith that it is real, as I do. So whether you think your in Love, or just know your in Love, go with it and if it is right then you were right for sticking with it. I am a man again of very few words but when I do take the time to write down my thoughts there is usually a reason. I am in love with a woman, whom I feel believes in me as much as I do her. I haven't been one for pipe dreams, or make believe feelings like most on the internet, so when I find that one real life spark I go after it. I just am in a wait process right now and when that times comes for me to have her, I know that the rest of my life will be complete. There is something to be learned here, if you communicate with one whether it via phone, snail mail, email and or chat do me a favor, be candid. You may find yourself in a complexed yet very fulfilling relationship that you can nurtur from an internet romance into something that can be a real life happiness. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope it helps cause it has me. God Bless & Jah Love! Dr Tre

I woke up this morning and went to my message area and well I found a cup of java and this poem---I Love my Girl and the poem she found for us! xxoo hope you all enjoy it! "I close my eyes & you I see, Your beautiful smile it captures me, You look to me & see my soul, You now have complete control... My beautiful Angel so strong & free, Together forever we’ll always be, The love we share will see us through, Forever dear heart I will love you... From where you came I do not know, But to your side I must go, My love for you shall never end, Forever you will be my friend... To be with you I dream so much, Holding you tight & feeling your touch, Your breath upon my skin so sweet, I long so much for when we’ll meet... The day shall come for you & me, We’ll grow together you shall see, Our love will last & never die, Together forever You & I."