Could life just become simple.. Everyting just fall into place? Well obviously not mine. Its more confusing now then it has been in awhile. First off I need to find a better job.. I love the job that I have, but I need more money.. But doesnt everyone? My love life is one big mess. I have some of the greatest men in the world in my life but its not fair to them that I am dating them all and not giving just one my undivided attention. Man #1 has had my attention for a while now. He is a sweetheart but his life is a little crazy for me, and I'm not sure I would fit in it. He is a bit of a wild child, and I dont think he is ready to give that up.He says he really cares about me, and that if he had a reason to settle down he would. I know he really wants a family and to be the provider, and take care of everyoe, but he cant accept that he might need to be taken care of too, and needs to let someone in in order to have the family. Man #2 Is actually a former ex and he wants us to be a couple again. He has gotten his life together and is on his way to making himself the man I knew he could be. I know he really honsetly cares about me and really wants to make it work, but I dont know if I wanna chance us falling back into the routine of fighting that we were in when we broke up. I see that he has made changes in himself, and he made them for me, but can you really become someone different. And I dont think I have changed that much. I am still set in my ways.And I dont think the things about a person that annoyed you at one time, can become the reasons you love them. Man #3 is awesome. He is a sweetheart and he makes me feel amazing about myself. When he looks at me I feel gorgeous. And I honestly think we are on the same page in our lives. I can be my silly self with him and not feel judged. He makes me feel safe and like the possibilty of something good is around every corner.
There's my choices.. 3 wonderful men. That have so much to offer someone.. Adventure and Spice.. Persistance and willingness to change... Hope and openmindednss.. and you can probablyh see why it is hard to just pick one all have qualities I adore. Each of them contain a little bit of the person I wish I could be. I dont want to hurt any of them, or loose any of them. But I think it's unavoidable.. and I probably will have to urt myself a little to finally make a choice. I just wish it was simple and the obvious choice was just staring me in the face, but it cant be that simple.
