Lexa's blog: "Torn"

Okay, So this is very hard for me. I have realized over the last week I am in love with 2 men. How can that be you ask? I am not 100% sure either. Here I was happily engaged, and didn't think I could ever want anything more in my life. I recently started talking to a friend I hadn't talked to in almost a year. He told me all about everything that has gone on in his life since we last spoke. I was so happy and thrilled for him until.... I realized I was very jealous. He was always there for me, he's a great person and for the most part I am very happy for him, cuz he is happy. I never realized I had feelings for him, until now and he's happy. I am driving myself crazy. I don't know how to talk to him anymore, because I am crazy jealous, and all that crap. I hate to think anything would come between us, but I am just a mess. I KNOW this friend and I could NEVER be together. I have never felt like this before, and I don't want anyone's BS comments saying I'm a slut or whore. This is just a very hard, and I need some good advice. Anyone have any advice?