Walter's blog: "The Junk In My Mind"

What do you do when you've taken your social network shit too fuckin' serious? You've gotten engaged, you spent shit loads on bling and points and all that other bullshit? What do you do? There are no take backs, there is no way to erase what has happened and start all over. And if there was, would you REALLY want to start all over just to make the same bullshit mistakes again? Or what if you did start over and you didn't do the same crap over again? Who cares if it never happens again, you already fucked up. 

There are times, I start to think, Why the hell did I begin to believe that this could be real? Am I that fucking lonely that I have to look for people to talk to online? I never thought I was, but recently, I have started to believe that I'm a sorry ass lonely fucker. I need to rate shit, and like shit, and drink imaginary drinks, and give out imaginary fucking gifts, JUST so someone can say aww how fucking sweet, and get gratification from that? What the fuck happened to me?

It's kinda fucked up when the wake up call is too late and you have over slept yourself into stupidity. But at least I'm awake now, and in the end, this stupid blog is more me talking to myself than actually talking to anyone else. And there again is something that is fucking wrong. When the fuck did I start talking to myself? I started talking to myself, when I started taking all this online social bullshit seriously. 

I don't know if it is a vicious cycle, or just me being stupid.