These things I once All shamed
These things I Tried to hold still
I kept telling myself just on more pill
I did it to relsease I did it to relax
all the while Making you feel alright an
Convinceing you I was fine
The only thing I wanted was for you to hold me tighht
I tired to show you the best I knew how
Of the many things that troubled me now.
Not knowing what is right, Not knowing If Ill make it untill dawn light.
Sitting their cold as steel-- I plead with you just one more pill.
My hands so shaky an so cold- All the things I never wanted to know.
I just wanted to feel out of this hole.
Shaky My hands graps so cold what is left of this razor I hold. All I know is I feel so alone.
I just want you to know-- no matter what You will always have a hold. On my heart
That is all to cold.
To cold to hear
To cold to care
To cold to even really know who's their.
To cold to leave
But to cold to cave
When will they dig my Grave?
My hands that were once shaky an pale are now
coverd in blood that I made myself shed.
The blood that is shed is for you
Why wont you just be true.
The blood that is bleed
Is blood that is dead.
Dead to the soul an dead to me
For your love was never in red you see.
It was never true it was never you.
All you wanted was my naked flesh next to you.
all you wanted was never ending extacy.
So I done I'm tired of playing
I'm tired of Feeling oh so mistaken
I'm tied of never beeing enough
an I'm tired of all that you have made me now -hush.
So my Shaky hands are on Razors of gold an I want you to grab ahold.
Help me finish, Help me die, Help me leave this world of lies.
Help me into the light, An help me out of this fright, An please
help me say, my final good byes tonight.