i woke up this morning and did a new routine, i actually prayed for my higher powers will. and so far it has worked.. i have not had the urge to get high.. when i turned on my computer to check on the air stauts of my lounge it was pointed out that there is a daily horiscope on the home page..... and between mine to day and what was talked about yesterdays meeting i have heard the word acceptance more than what i wanted to. so i took a bit of time and thought about it. and came to the aknowledgement that i have to accetp the fact that i am an addict.. so with more thinking and openmindedness i am willing to accept i am an addict and i will be for the rest of my life. addiction is an uncurable and fatal disease which can be arrested if one has the willingness to ask for help.... today i have the willingness and the openmindedness to ask for help... in which i so desperatly need caus i can not do it my self...
