today i was busy as hell
but yet still thoughts of you
they just seemed to follow me as i was on the go
i thought of all the wise things you have said
i thought of the different times
that you would come and go
i thought about the day that we first met
as well as the day you walked away
i thought about how lost i was without you
when not one but both of my parents passed
i thought of my dad and how he would tell me
"when you choose your freinds remember that they will come and go or come and grow"
that left me puzzled because of all the times you ran away from my love and freindship
then today i came to the dicision that you werent ever meant to come and go
but that the part my dad left out was that
i should know that we all have to start out
as merely seeds that need to handled with love and attention time and respect
then and only then we can grow and mature
into people that others can respect and depend on
and love and care about
but yet until we do all that for ourselves
how can we accept and desire and believe in
anyone elses love
so having said that my friend
i love you
you are special to me
i need you
even if its not now the time will come
i care about you
and about how things are going in your life
i desire you
because even if your not being the best i know you are
you are being the best you can at that particular time in you life
i dream of you
because you are in my past
i long for you
in my future
a big part of who i am
is because of you
you may not have found your worth in this world
but you helped me find my "womans worth"
thank you for who you are
thank you for who you was
thank you for who you have yet to become
because i know and believe that man in you
will one day roll in like "thunder"
i hope to be present in your life when that man
becomes present
till then.....im always here
<3 amy lynn
