Well, let's write something about the day — Wednesday, 27 September 2006
Summery-
I went to school. It's a frustrating time in life for me right now, It's actually the first time I have ever felt stupid. ( while not being drunk or high ) Math sux. I understand the concepts, but fuck up when adding, or writing the negative down on the nextline when transfering stuff over, or stupid shit like that. It's also hard to concentrate on anything because I have so much on my mind. School, and girls, and army shit that runs in circles, and life as a whole.
I joined the reserves today. I didn't sign a contract or anything yet, I just basicly like signed into a unit where I don't have to change my mos. I'll be an operator at a hospital. I can see how I like it, and if I really don't then I can go back to the irr. I'll see how it goes, and go from there... I figure if for somereason I have a problem with something and I have to get out, and they won't let me for somereason, I'll develop an attraction to males that I just can't hide any longer. Then I'm pretty sure they won't have a problem with letting me out. And then after I'm out, I can be like well, I guess it was just from being around army guys or something, cuz I don't feel that way anymore, and go on with my life. Although I highly doubt it will come to that. I figure I might as well see how it goes though. I'm sure my family isn't happy with it, but ohwell, they aren't paying for my college at all, and they aren't giving me a job that seems somewhat, something. Something like meaningfull, but not quite. Respectable? maybe. Working as an operator at a hospital, has a different feeling than working at a fast food place, or at a gas station or something like that. So once again I'll be "serving" people that have a problem with me... But atleast I'm not serving them fries. I just have to figure out how I'm going to temporatly get my hair brown for the weekends I work. There has to be some kind of brown spraypaint stuff somewhere that will work. This way I can fight with people too. That's always fun.
I went to a wine and cheese party at my brother's house tonight. It was fun. We did the obvious, drank wine and ate cheese and crackers and stuff. And played a loaded questions board game for a little while. But I had to go home and sleep. That's what I need to do now.
so, that was the summer, imagine how long a long version would be.
Oh and last thing, some jackass has decieded to rate all my pics a 1. How fun for them. ladeda. It's a fucking website. Assholes are even bigger assholes on the internet. There's that screen they hide behind. I bet if he met me, or there was a possibility of him crossing my path, he wouldn't do that.
