Today I went from, literally being the happiest woman on gods green earth (at about 4pm) to being reduced to tears that just wouldnt stop coming (at about 7pm). Crazy what the one's you choose to love can make you feel. Or what those feelings can make you do. Guess I wasn't ready for it all to happen today. Love is stronger then anything else on this planet... it can make you cry, make you laugh, make you sick, make you mad, make you crazy, make you hurt.... and make you do things that you wouldn't normally do (for me today, that was cry). I guess you have to know me really well to understand this blog, but this aint about no man. This is about my family specifically my little sister. She is my heart and if you ask me about her I can talk about her for HOURS I love that girl more then life itself and I would do anything for her. Today we tried something new... I was going to take my sister out by myself. NOW I thought this would be cool but she wasn't havin' any of it. She straight freaked out, I mean she's been good as hell since she got home but today man it was off the wall. She thought we were trying to pull a fast one on her and she got me good right in the right eye then again in the chest. She didn't want me any where near her. That hasn't happend since she was YOUNG... like 11. Seven years and she has shown NO agression towards me. Especially not after she moved out... I was always her favorite and I'm scared I put a lasting imprint in her head today that could potentially damage our relatonship. Today broke my heart and after it was all over she was sad too all she could say was sorry/cry and wouldn't let me tell her it was alright. It broke me, I couldn'y help but cry.
**For those of you who don't know my sister has Autism... if you don't know me well enough... DO NOT comment this blog. If you would like to know about Autism contact me, I would be glad to talk to you about it or my situation in specific.
Thanks for listening....
