I had an appt with my dr today and it looks like this may be over with before too long. It has given me some peace about it all. I think I only cried like twice today and for me....thats a record for a day so far. I am starting to feel a little more normal and am even laughing a little bit again. Now.....I just have to wait for this baby to finally leave me so that I can go on. I dont want to be without my baby but if its not healthy and living....it shouldnt be with me anymore. It is not doing either of us any good. I love this baby and will remember it always. My dr said they might be able to tell me if it was a boy or girl once it comes and I take to lab so they can study it. Mike and I are engraving a little gold ring for me to wear on a necklace and it would be nice to have a name to put on it. I am also looking for a cedar craft box to put some stuff in for the baby just as a keepsake. Would like to paint a name on that too if possible. Well thanks for listening and being my friends. I am sure I will be writing in here again before too long.
