i will let nothing encrouch upon my good mood. *repeats to self*
not whiney people
not people in a bad mood
not self absorbed people
not 'mom mode' people
not pushy people
not people who call more than once a day asking for 'mike' when they already know the answer. mike shoulda paid his fuckin bill n then i wouldnt have his phone number.
not people who set the rules and think i have to abide by them...if you knew me at all this is about the time you'd start getting a clue...
not people who dont have time to cultivate friendships
not people who only talk to me when they want something
not the people at the market who tell me to step away from the caffeine. no caffeine involved. its called happy. try it sometime. you might like it.
not the christian league of whatever looking for whoever who keep calling asking for irene whoever the eff that is.
not cranky allergy filled children.
not any of it.
today is...be who i am day...exactly who i am. all me. all the time. take it. or leave it.
i should be in this mode all the time. it would drastically simplify my life...and succinctly remove the 'unwanted' from it. not that theres much 'unwanted' left in it. the people i talk to the most are the people i would classify as the 'wanted'. you know who you are. and if you dont. you should by now.
its one of those days that has been absolutely perfect. more so in the beauty of the day and the enjoyment of the day than any other respect. its one of those days where im tired of bending and biting my tongue and hedging around in conversations so as not to 'offend'. sure. theres a certain modicum of politeness and civility which i believe is 'good manners' to practice. but every minute of every day...is just being fake. and i wont have it. not today. not anymore.
im that blunt sarcastic person of little tact thats going to say the things that piss you off without thinking twice. im the person thats going to talk about things that you dont want to hear. why? cuz i figure im due. i listen to assloads of issues and problems and dribble that means absolutely nothing to me...and its at the point where i just want to take people by the shoulders and shake the shit out of them while screaming 'you made your own bed now lie in it' as im sure they've wanted to do to me for a very long time.
life is what you make of it.
put in minimal effort you're going to get minimal results.
thats not my fault, thats your own.
im most definitely not pointing fingers at any one person. its more like, people as a whole in which i include myself as well.
i want to be able to be me.
without the judgemental bullshit that comes along with having any kind of interaction with other carbon based beings.
*laughs*
if only...right?
