CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Crushed and not the good way"

Today is gonna be the hardest day for awhile. I am at my friend Tanja's right now but go see my boyfriend tonight about 7 to stay with him for the night then we leave about 7am to go to the airport. I so dont want to be coming back to the states. I keep thinking tonight is going to be the last night I get to hold him for 3-8 mths and its tearing me up!! Yesterday I did go buy him and I matching bears, yes you read right bears. I sprayed his with my obsession, and I will give it to him tonight with a note that says if you ever feel lonely or miss me hug the bear.... Mine is in my suitcase already....How is it physically possible when you love someone so much not to have it hurt so bad when you have to leave. God I wish I knew the answer to that!