God i feel like a heel....
I bitch about how people dont respect those of us who serve but i spend most my time now sitting at a desk not doing anything unless i'm needed to do otherwise.
I always said i would never be the one sitting behind the desk and yet.. I am...
I feel like a fucking idiot and i hate it, I should be back over seas with my brothers and sisters in arms.... I wonder from day to day if and when i will receive orders to go but then hear that it might not happen and then it will happen and i'm confused as all hell.
I'm sorry you guys, I'm sorry i aint out there i am sorry... This sucks so bad i know yeah okay i've been twice now already but i'm safe and warm and where are my brothers and sisters in arms ... In harms way.
I sit and bitch about my love life and or lack their of or my family and petty little complaints i make seem like such a big deal....
I should be freaking greatful that i am even still standing here , we all should be... To my brothers and sisters in arms i'm so sorry you guys... I want you all home so no more flags have to sit at half mast and so no more tears have to be shed.
I hope all this ends soon ... or at least get my orders so i can join the fight again.
I love you guys.
HOOAH!!
