To Live Or Not!
What if you where told you had cancer? Would you chose to fight, or would you just let it take it's course? I often sit and wonder how would I answer that question. I sometimes think I would just let it run its course and then at others I just dont know. I have watched to people very close to me fight it. One was my father, whom died from it. The other is my brother who is still fighting it. He has been fighting for 4 long years, and yet his spirit refuses to give up. We almost lost him about a month ago, but he fough to get strong and have surgery, which has helped a great deal. I wonder sometimes were that inner strength comes from. Is it just the spirit inside him that is unwilling to let it beat him. Or has God just said its not time yet. I watch as he endures pain and treatment. Going in and out of the hospital. fighting for every day he is alive, and hearing him say that the worst day alive, is better than the best day dead. It is amazing what the human soul can endure. It is amazing how our struggles and hardships will bring us closer to the Lord our God. Even if you are not the most religious or spiritual person around, I think that we all have Jesus and God deep within ourselves. I know that there are a lot of beliefs, thoughts, and feelings about Jesus and God. However, you must admitt, when life seems the toughest, the worest, the hardest. We all turn to Jesus/God for guidance, even if some people wouldn't admit it. I gain everyday from watching my brother fight for his life. I see everyday, that even the worst day here, is still a good day. I learn strength. I learn that when God is ready then when we go. Not before, and not after that, but when he is ready.