Thee SilverEagle's blog: "TO ALL MY FRIENDS"

"NIGHTWIND" The night is cold, brisk, clear. Uncertain where the night will end. It envelopes me and I fear it this night. The specters are here too. My demons have come to greet me for this is their night as well, but they find comfort in this whereas I find a fear incomprehensible to any I've known in the past. I can't sleep cause my soul awaits impending doom. I do find comfort with my black steed. She stands strong against the whirlwind of dispair smashing against her steel flank and tail. I know for now she is my sanctuary. Oh the horrific deeds that hath caused me this suffrage and my enemy is the face that stares back at me in the mirror. One I know so well yet one I can't kill. The nightwind calls to me to the sounds of slamming doors which I swiftly silence with stones wedged into the frames. My attempt to silence the howling only seemed to anger it more. This is my first night. A long night. I stumble in the sand and fall to my knees. Looking up to the clear starry night I screem out loud 'Oh God, deliver me from this hell', yet I know that as much as I seek salvation I know this nightwind will forever be a part of my life. The nightwind calls me, I am forsaken and this is my new world that I have created. I am home.

I know to some this year has been very difficult but I truly belive that 2008 is the turnaround year. My prayer to all is that all the troubles of the past be put behind you in this comming year and we set aside this Christmas and remember the true meaning behind it. Love for self and for all man and woman kind. It starts with you. Spread the love in 2008 and beyond.

This will be my last night on-line as I relocate to another apartment. I will try to get myself set up as quickly as possible. Moving is not fun as you know, and this is no exception. I will disconnect sometime tonight. I hope to talk to you all soon. You know I love chatting but for those who are my friends and I haven't chatted with for a while ... I'm not into friendships for just the ratings. I need friends, and my true friends need me. I'll see ya'll on the other side.

Last night as I slept I was striken with Bell Palsy. I'm sure some if not most of you my dear friends have heard of this nuralogical event. First I need to settle your nerves .... THIS IS NOT A STROKE!!!............ok. 40.000 people are striken with this very irratating form of paralysis in the US. Its belived that the reason for this is a viral infection such as viral meningtis or the comon cold sore virus herpes simplex causes the disorder when the facial nerve swells and becomes inflamed in reaction to the infection. This is the first day for me. Within the next two days the right side of my face will become more rigid and my mouth may droop. Normaly this may last as short a period as three weeks or as long as a month or more. Now ya'll now me. I can be a stuborne man so I survived two divorces so I sure won't let this tear me up. I got the edge, first this was cought very early so I got this things number. Now there isn't a cure but there are ways to help prevent it from getting worse or lasting a lifetime. I'm taking intibiotics for the virus. Also I need to take eye drops because my right eye won't blick. I will close, but it won"t blink and because the blinking of the eye keeps it moist my drops will have to do that for me. I'll be taking a drop every hour. Next thing is to excorsize my facial mucles as often as I can. I would look into the mirror and try to make faces. Even though my face won't react to it, it will help keep the mucles active. Looks like I'll be drinking out of a straw for a while because everything dribbles out the right side of my mouth. I think I got that down but I'll tell ya eating my wonton soup was no picnic today. I really havent begun the heavy sluring of speech but I think that will come in the days ahead. My body is not effected, only my face. I guess thats it in a nutshell. The only thing I want to advise you is this. I was a perfect canadate for this paralysis, high blood pressure. diabeticis, stress. This can lead to a stroke. I was very lucky, and thankfull it wasn't worse. It started last night with a slight numbness in my tongue after dessert. I went to bed and when I awoke the right side of my face was partialy paralized. Take care of your blood pressure and keep your stress as low as possible. I'm your friend and if I can do anything for you ..... let this be it. Trust me ..... YOU DON'T WANT THIS.