bethdawn07's blog: "tired!!!!!!!"

have u ever cared so much about someone that u would do anything for them and you love them with all your heart but u feel they dont feel the same about u? well thats how i feel i mean i try so hard to make people happy and what good does it do me? it seems like i just push them farther away and if ur sittin there wonderin if im talkin about u i probably am.... cause where the hell are u when i need u? im always freakin there for everyone and where the hell are they when i need them? i show that i miss them when their not around but when im not around they act like they could care less.... im just simply giving up... im tired of makin everyone else happy... when does someone get to make me happy huh? so whatever ok either u care about me or u dont if u want to be my friend or whatever show it cause if im considered ur friend im freakin tired of u acting otherwise you dont have to always say it but every now and then letting me know that u care would make me feel alot better ok p.s. not tryin to sound like a bitch just had a really bad day ok peace out ~Bethany~

Do you ever just have those friends or family that you'd do anything for and you would give them the world if you could, but they dont seem like they give a damn. I just am getting sick and tired of trying so hard to please people I mean I'd walk a thousand miles just to make someone happy or if I could help them I would in anyway possible...so its left me laying awake at night thinking of how much I hate people who lie to me I mean it doesnt make me dislike them it just gets to me that they can't be honest at least once about something. That they dont know that Im a strong person and that I can take the honesty... I care so much about people so easily I wear my heart on my sleeve way to much and I need to learn to stop it. But I only want the best for people even if it means I have to give up what I feel for them I dont know what to do I am starting to guard my heart so NO one can get thru... in order not to hate myself or the world around me. I give up no one else cares so why should I what am I getting out of being nice to so many people nothing but a broken heart and alot of tears I just dont care anymore....