Sassy Irish Pixie's blog: "Tired of trying"

I think I'm finally starting to go numb over the hurt and betrayal and broken promises. The thing is, I hate the way this feels more than all that other stuff. Just once, I want to find someone that makes a promise then actually keeps it. Not make a promise because it's convienant at the time and not care if it hurts the other person when you don't keep it. I want to stop being that girl. The one you promise the world to, then yank it all out from under me. I deserve better than that. I deserve someone that knows how to act like a human being. Someone who doesn't use me. Someone who actually cares how I feel. I deserve someone that will treat me with respect. Who will be honest with me. If little promises don't matter to you, how am I supposed to believe that the big ones do? Something as simple to break as watching a movie together may not mean much to you, even though it was your idea and you promised that time, but it may mean the world to the other person. You never know what that one act of keeping a promise may do to lift a persons spirits, or what that one act of breaking a promise might do to their self esteem. You shouldn't make a promise if you have no intention of keeping it. It might be fun and games to you, but just once, think of that person whose world you may be shattering.