Cindy ROSE's blog: "TIME IS ALL I NEED"

I LET MY EMOTIONS GET AHEAD OF MYSELF. WELL I WOULD SAY ABOUT SIXTY PERCENT OF THE TIME. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO CONTROL THEM IT SEEMS I LET IT HAPPEN. I HAVE HAD MY SHARE OF HURTING FOR A LIFE TIME SO I AM TRYING NOT TO LET MY MOTIONS GET AHEAD OF THINGS WHEN IT COMES TO MEETING PEOPLE. BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE PERSON THAT HAS MADE IT EVEN HARDER FOR ME TO CONTROL THEM BUT I KNOW IF I DONT I WILL LOSE HIM AND I DONT WANT TO DO THAT. AND EVEN IF I DO GET THEM UNDER CONTROL THERE IS NO GUARANETTE THAT HE WILL STAY. I KNOW I HAVE TO BE PATIENT AS WELL, AND THEN AGAIN PATIENTS IS ANOTHER THING THAT I HAVE A HARD TIME WITH WHEN COMES TO SOMETHING OR SOMEONE THAT I WANT IN MY LIFE. I ALSO KNOW THAT IN ORDER TO HAVE THEM I HAVE TO WORK ON BEING PATIENT AND MOST OF ALL THESE FREAKING CRAZY EMOTIONS OF MINE THAT SEEM TO "FUCK" THINGS UP FOR ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO CONTROL THEM. I TELL MY SELF WHEN AND IF I MEET THIS GENTLEMAN THAT I WOULDNT DO THAT, WELL GUESS WHAT THE SHIT WENT APE SHIT..LOL.... AND NOW I AM SURE THAT I HAVE LOST HIM FOREVER NOW AND THAT REALLY HURTS MY HEART CUZ I FUCKIN LOVE THIS MAN FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND SOUL. BUT THEN AGAIN YA NEVER KNOW HOW THINGS WILL WORK THEMSELVES OUT, AND ALL I KNOW IS I WILL HAVE TO LEARN FROM THIS AND BECOME EVEN MORE STRONGER THAN EVER. AS THIS WILL BE A TEACHING TOOL FOR ME TO SIT BACK AND TAKE A LONG HARD LOOK AT WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN IN THE FIRST PLACE.

There is a time in our lives where you have to take a few steps back and let the one you love breath. meaning you have to let them have the space that is needed to find out who they are and what they want. And with in that time frame hope and pray that they make the right decissions. But what ever that decission is you have to respect it. As i see it Time is all that there is and if time is what we need then so be it. "as i know cuz i was taught by the best, My Parents". That time is a best healer that GOD could have ever created. So in other words if time and patients is what is takes to get them back then time and patients is what is shall be.