Throwing around the words"I LOVE YOU"
Current mood: bummed
Category: Blogging
I find it really disgusting how people can throw around the words that are suppose to mean the most in this life. I have never said I love you and not meant it. And How does one fall in love so easy and fast? How can people really fall out of love and in love over a small period of time?
I think the answers to those questions are people want things their way, are in lust, or they just need to hear or have someone need them.
I rememeber the love that my parents had...it was a love that I really can't explain but mom lived for my dad! She would have done ANYTHING for him. He loved her yes and I know that but she was the bond that held them together. My mom was the best example of love that there ever was to me. She was a woman of honor and stayed with my dad regardless of the problems they suffered.
For better or worse...in sickness and in health...til death do us part...Wonder where this went? I really do not think that anyone who can not live by these words deserve to get married. I can understand, if a man/woman hits you...If they have cheated...treat you like dirt everyday...but this is not the case most of the time.
I do believe in love...however I do not believe in being married any longer. I do not believe that it is something that will last. In my lifetime I have dreamed of the perfect wedding and having children and a happy life being a momma. This dream has been shattered by being sick and the worlds fondness to divorce. Why waste the time?
I have lived a really hard life the past few years and it got really bad after my father died. I know now who I can count on and who truely loves me. It is sad again how those words are thrown around. I have had numerous people tell me that they love me and that they are here for me when I need them...but the truth is, they just say that because they have to. I mean it when I say it. I may not be able to do much...but atleast I will listen with an open mind. And if I tell you that I love you...I do!
Dad and mom will always be in my heart and I will miss them dearly until the day that I die...but knowing how things have become I am soo glad that they are in heaven and are happy! They are the lucky ones. I will continue to live in this mess of a world until God takes me...but I will try to live to the best of my ability and let my love shine through. I am going to try to live everyday as if it were my last.
So to all of you...(you know who you are) That I love, know this...I will FOREVER be the friend I claim to be and do what I can and when I can to be here and love you with all of my heart!
