LUCIFER WC's blog: "Thoughts"

Last night I stepped down from SER Management and Dj'ing. I think that is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Everyone was very supportive of my reasons, and thankfully it is that way...I had a few ppl that thought I was doing it for attention...but what the hell let ppl think what they want, I love my SER family and will still support them, I just needed to do this for my own personal health..sometimes it is so easy to get wrapped up in the Drama on Fubar you forget to take care of what matters most. Everyone takes things on this site to seriously sometimes and forgets that it is an escape. I started to do that and it caused me some serious health problems. So by stepping back from everything I was doing I am hoping to just get back to what I joined this site for and maybe even get some of my passion back for other things...

I am bored......bored enough to be writing a blog about absolutely nothing. You all must be bored to.....because you are reading this.......DAMN WE NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P

Death looms over all.........sometimes it is closer than anyone really thinks.......whether it is the fact that I have no meds to take or whatever the case......Right now it feels like death is calling my name and waiting on me to do something.....presents me with a unique situation...I can give in to my non medicated side and doing something which would probably be the single biggest mistake in my life......or I can do what the other side tells me....I can look Death in the eye and tell him to skull fawk himself with his scythe.......Personally I think that I am going to go with telling Death to Fawk himself and call my Dr tomorrow . I am having a hard time keeping up with myself and my own personal life.........I can deal with other ppls problems better than my own.....god knows why but it is the way I work for some reason......well I think I have come to realize that maybe I need to deal with this one before it gets any worse.....writing this is helping me feel a little better...but it is not the cure all for me.......I guess bottling up everything inside me probably doesn't help either, but hey I am only Human

When I first found a lounge I was adopted into a family.....and they know who they are....I finally found a missing part of me....that little piece of a puzzle that made everything make sense....My family made me feel welcome like I belonged with them....although I never claimed to be one of them...I am starting to feel as though now I am exactly what they are.....so I ask my family.....WHO AM I?