THIS IS WHY IAM THE WAY IAM
HI ALL
I WANT TO TELL EVERYONE WHY IAM THE WAY IAM.
(FAMILLY)
LAST START ABOUT MY PARENTS I LOVE MY MOM TO DEATH MY DAD LEFT WHEN I WAS 7 OR 8 AND TOLD ME BASICLLY WOULD ABOUT TO NOTHING I HAVE NOT TALKED TO HIM SINCE 1995. HE HAS BEEN IN TOWN LIKE AT LEAST 25 TIMES AND HE HAS NOT EVEN ASKED ABOUT HIS GRANDKIDS OR SON. THATS WHY I HOLD ON TO PEOPLE TO MUCH IAM NOT SURE IF ITS BECAUSE OF MY STEP MOM OR DAD BUT I DO LOVE MY DAD BECAUSE HE IS MY DAD. THATS WHY IAM THE WAY IAM. I TRIED TO MAKE UP WITH HIM IN 1999 I SENT HIM AN CHRISTMAS GIFT AND HE SENT IT BACK WITH A 4 PAGE LETTER SAYING IF U WANTED MONEY JUST ASK FOR IT MIND YOU I NEVER ASKED HIM FOR ANYTHING.
(FIRENDS)
THEN ITS THE FRIENDS. I HAD A FRIEND JASON WE USED TO GO TO CLUBS AND GO SHOOT POOL THEN HE GOT A GIRLFRIEND AND THAT WAS THE END OF MIKE AND JASON. I SAW HIM AT THE ECHELON MALL WITH HIS GF AND I SAID HI HE JUST WALKED BY AND DID NOT EVEN SAY HI. I HAVE NOT HAD A GOOD FRIEND SINCE LINDA MY FRIEND IN HIGH SCHOOL I HAVE TALKED TO HER SINCE 2000 I WOULD BEND OVER BACKWARDS FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS BECAUSE THATS THE WAY IAM I CANT SAY NO TO A FRIENDS (like i always say i will be your best or your worst enemy) THATS WHY IAM THE WAY IAM.
(LOVE)
WELL I WAS NEVER GOOD AT IT. MAYBE ITS BECAUSE OF MY PASSED AND I GET ATTACHED TO FAST. I JUST DONT WANT TO GET HURT AND IN 2005 I FOUND OUT SOME STUFF ABOUT MY X AND SOME OTHER GUY AND WE BROKE UP FOR A BIT NOW WE ARE FOR GOOD. THEN THERE WAS HIGH SCHOOL LINDSAY I LOVE YOU BUT IN SCHOOL SHE BROKE UP A WEEK BEFORE THE SR PROM AND I HAD NO ONE TO GO WITH AND I WENT WITH ONE OF MY FRIENDS NICOLE (RIP) SHE HAD THE NEVER TO ASK ME TO DANCE I TOOK ONE LOOK AT NICOLE AND SAID HONEY U HAD YOUR CHANCE. THAT IS THE WHY IAM THE WAY IAM
THERE IS ALOT MORE TO THIS BLOG AND I KNOW THERE ARE MORE PEOPLE WORSE OFF THAN ME IN THIS WORLD. AND ALL I DO IS TRY AND PLEASE PEOPLE AND BE THERE FOR PEOPLE BUT WHAT DO I GET A RASH OF SHIT OR A FUCK YOU U LAZY FUCK GET OFF YOUR ASS AND FIND A JOB. I WOULD TAKE A BULLET FOR ANYONE OF MY FRIENDS OR ANYONE I CARED FOR BUT WHEN I GET SHIT BACK OR HEY I CANT DO THIS OR DO THAT. I WANT AND NEED SHIT IN MY LIFE AND U KNOW WHAT THEY ARE KIDS FAMILY AND LOVE. I WOULD DROP ANYTHING FOR ANYONE IF THEY CALLED RIGHT NOW BUT I HAVE TO CARRY MY ASS TO A HOSPITAL WITH A BROKEN FOOT LIKE I DID LAST YEAR BECAUSE NO OF MY FRIENDS WOULD TAKE ME. WELL I COULD GO ON FOR DAYS WITH THIS AND I DONT FEEL GOOD SO I WILL END IT HERE. LOVE AND PEACE
