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Ok now most of you already know everything about me and what has been going on in my life over the last several weeks. For those that don't I am going to lay it out on the line for you. I have written in my blogs about things I have done that were stupid and foolish and I didn't deserve forgiveness. Well I got it and we have moved on with our lives. Well someone needs to grow up and move on with her own life and leave me alone. It is not going to be pretty if I ever run into her and I will be honest about that. You are going to go around and tell people that you are going to have my son taken away from me. Know I heard that you are going to take me to court and try to get custody of my son. Let me tell you something right to the point, you are not his mother and you are not his father. I am his father and if you think that a court in this country will even grant you temp. custody you are smoking something. As far as talking shit about me, I must be the most important thing in your life because I am all you talk about. Stop doing what your doing relax and move on or you will know what it is like not to have your child. You have enough problems to need to start more with me and you know who you are. Word of advise to you is leave it alone and move on and don't bother me and leave me alone and don't ever come near me or you will get an ear full if not more.
This is to everyone that seems to think that my personnal life is that interesting to talk about. We will start off with the whole wife thing that is so gratefully thrown up in my face all the time. Yes I am married and seperated, no she is not coming back and yes I am getting a divorce. My wife walked out on me and my son 2 years ago and hasn't looked back since except to see my son. Second, if I was dating someone I would never cheat on them no matter what is thrown up in my face. When I am with someone it is until it is over or other wise. I am honest about everything and yes I know before anyone feels the urge to say it I did lie about something to someone I care about. So you can drop that subject to, it is done and over with and we have moved on from their. Third thing I need to say is about people going around and telling people that I don't like them. If I instant message you and am talking to you then it means I like you. If I don't talk to you online or on the phone then you should pretty much know that I don't like you. If my life was that interesting to begin with I would be happy with it, but I am not and I don't understand why people feel the need to talk about me all the time. My true friends know everything their is to know about me, and if you would like to know anything just ask and I will talk about it to you. I had alot of friends and some of them did somethings that hurt me. I told them things in private that I wanted no one else to know and those people found out any way so how can that be a friend to me. I am the type of person to give a second chance but sometimes I don't know about it.
This goes out to all the people that want to say they "Love Me", are my friends, care about me, or think they even know what I am feeling sometimes. Will start off with the ones that say they "Love Me." Their are 4 of you and of the 4 only 1 matters to me. The first one I am referring to just admitted to me that over the past 6 years has been playing with my emotions. Telling me that she "loves Me", but as soon as her boyfriend gets out of jail I am no good to talk to. You also say that you want me to be happy, but yet you say those things that hurt so much. The next one goes out to the one that has no idea what she wants in this world. She has no clue of who I am, but she "Love's Me" and still she talks shit about herself. She says that she can wait for me but I don't want you to and nor would I ask you to. The 3rd one wants what is best for me and has my best interest in mind. She only wants me to be happy and if it is not with her she is ok with it. The first 2 come off and say that all that is happening to me is that I am being played and it will never happen. You have my best interest in mind and yet you want to hurt me by saying things about the 1 person I care about the most. I am in Love with one person and it will never change no matter what anyone says. She is the one person that knows me in and out and really brought me out of my personnal hell I was in but yet you all say she is not right for me. This part is to my friends. You all want for me to be happy but when it comes to my Best Friend you all sit their and bad mouth her and turn around and lie to their face. Plus you all have had a Birthday and we all thought about you and had parties if we could. But when the Idea of having a party, planned by my Great Best Friend, for me and all the sudden noone can make it. I have heard all the excuses out their and only except the one from Robert, because he is strapped and can't help it. Another one of my friends is really upsetting me also with all the talk about being prego and it is lame already. To you I say get over and until you have the Baby you shouldn't come out because it is not health for the baby. I am to the point of just going away and not telling anyone where I am except one person. Please stop all the bickering over everything. This part goes out to those few people that think they know exactly what I am going through. One you have no clue what I am going through and you never will so you can stop thinking you know. The second thing is if I want to talk to you I would and you are not one of my real friends so so trying to become my friend. I talk to who I want and when I want to and noone will tell me different. As you can tell I changed my number so I don't have to deal with you anymore, so take the hint. And finally to the one person that has done almost everything for me. All I can say is that someday we may end up together or we may not, but I am grateful for having you in my life. I am not saying that I am giving up on you, because we both know I can't do that and neither can you. I Love You with all my heart and you have helped me throughalot, from dealing with my ex-wife to dealing with my psyco ex-girlfriend to retards that just want to talk about me. To you I say thank you and I hope you are able to find what you are looking for someday so that you can be happy. I will always be here for you no matter what happens, anywhere, anytime you can call me and I will be their for you. One day you will get everything you want in life and I hope that I am your when it happens.

Life story

This is a true story of how I met the on person who I truely "Love". It was back in the Summer of 1994 when I was dating someone else. One hot summer day we had went out to play Basketball at the Arthur Street playground. When we got their we ran into one of her frineds that she had known and she introduced us. We hit it off good with talking and getting to know each other. We talked about everything and had a good time. In my mind I thought that this attractive Girl was talking to me and not running away from me. We had a good summer and by the time we went back to school the girlfriend had broke up with me because of some stupid shit. I didn't care because I got something better out of the deal and that was a new friend. We would always talk whether it was at school, on the phone, hangout at her house, at home football games or even at the mall. We were always together. We were as close of friends that 2 people could be without anything ever happening between us. Well the whole time this was going on I wanted to ask her out, but was afraid to. Well she hooked me up with one of her friends that didn't work out at all. All I want was her and noone else then. Then every person that she went out with would threaten me if I came near her they would hurt me. Well that didn't work because I never listened no matter what they did to me. By the time that I was ready to tell her how I felt and ask her out she was gone. Then I found her again, but as soon as I did I lost her again. Over the next few years, all I could do was think about what I had lost and think of what it would have been like if I had just asked her out in the beginning. Well speed forward to 2 years ago and she is back in my life and as Beautiful as the day I met her. Know over the past 2 years we have spent the time getting to know each other all over again and it has been worth every moment. It has been the best time of my life. Now mind you that I have had feelings for her before and they were coming back out. Well I finally got them out and told her with out waiting. I Love Her with all that I canand noone can possably tell me that they understand that except her. She is always their for me when I need someone to talk to and always on my mind when I am not with her. I can be working, on a call, talking to someone else on the phone and all I do is think about her. Me and her could spend hours on the phone ( By the way I miss doing that along with our talks at night after the bar). We have just become as close as two people can come that are not in a relationship. She has opened my eyes up to the world and I Love her for that. I hope to always have her in my life no matter what happens in my life, if we end up together or I end up with someone else. Just to let you know I am not giving up at all. I will try until you tell me different. My Heart is an open book and if you want in all you have to do is ask and I will tell you.
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