Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you can go back in time and take back something you did. I think we all have but also to have to think of the consequences of what could happen. There's somethings that I have done to ruin stuff in my life whether it would be with friends or relationships. I've learned that you should always tell someone how you feel and never keep feelings bottled up. This doesn't just go for that one woman or man you care about but also family. I've lost my dad in September 28, 2004 and the one thing I regret is not telling I loved him before he died and I don't know when the last time I told him I loved him in person. I've heard it all like "he knows you loved him". Never leave something unsaid cause it can come back and kick you in the butt. So you treasure your family and friends and hold no grudges no matter how hard it is. A grudge can leave you bitter inside and eat away at you. It's hard to forgive someone. I wish I could go back and redo somethings in my life like go back to school when I left high school. I've ruin friendships from very good friends of stuff I've done that I wish I could take back. Sometimes it's hard to let a friend go that you care about. I've lost friends cause they get a b/f or g/f. A friend is there for you no matter what because a g/f or b/f may not always be there and that's when you need friends to fall back on. I have lots of friends that I've missed over the years do to some crap I have done to ruin it. I keep those things to myself. Like the song goes "Find Out Who Your Friends Are". A friend will stand by you no matter what and give the shirt off his or her back. When I go out I don't drink that much cause if my friend(s)need a way home I do what I can to help out. I"m confused sometimes on what to do with friends to not loose them. Sometimes my biggest problem is caring to much even when I know the situation they are in. Like I said in my previous blog a woman with kids is should not be considered extra baggage. Kids are our future and that's why I care so much about kids that I would give what I can from my body to help a kid in whatever way I can. To me all kids are my friend. What pisses me off is these child molesters who are sweet to kids for some SICK reason. The same happen when a guy abuses a woman it gives other guys a bad name that are trying to prove to women that not all guys are the same. I do my best to prove to people that I'm not like every other person. I've always been good with kids cause I like to get down on the floor and let kids climb on me and beat me up. I had one girl just ran up and huged me and I thought it made me feel good inside. There's nothing more special than making a child smile it just puts a special feeling in your heart. I do what I can to not make anyone feel uncomfortable when i'm around there kids. That goes back to why sick guys do stuff like that. Maybe it's a chemical imbalance in there head. If I see a guy do that or hit a kid in a way like closed fist or with some kind of weapon the I'll loose it and do what I can to protect that kid and I don't care if it's a parent or guardian or family member. Because can't defend themselves and doing that can have long term mental affect on them and cause them not to trust anyone or open up. Well i'm going to close this Blog I might post another one later.
