Disappointment, it's something that can be counted on. It will always be there in someone or something you do. Lost loves, lost games, lost friends. Lives cut to short by death, dreams dashed down by OTHER peoples' cold reality. Because of what they went through, because of their past experiences it can only the same for you. YOU can't break the mold, YOU can't be anything but what you come from or from what those around you are. We even do it to our own selves, let past experiences, past people, past history, we let it ALL get in the way. Some are even so completely tore up from what happened before they sabotage everything good that happens later.
Recently someone knocked on my door and I was just as warm as I ever was. (He was puzzled, because in his mind he had done me wrong. In my mind he told me the truth and made a choice to do what was necessary for him to do what was right by his children and someone else he had made a promise to. He didn't have to be truthful, and most wouldn't have been, that to me takes a certain amount of courage most no longer posses.) He asked how I could be, why I was even speaking to him. The answer was simple enough, I loved him, before and even now. Simply because our time was done, the love didn't end. Maybe I'm odd because of that, but it's how I am, and while sometimes it makes things difficult emotionally, it's the way I want to stay.
I share this because I tell you, no matter what happens love does NOT end. Infatuation fades, passion and desire sometimes fizzle, but love... it's constant and always there.
People will come and go your entire life, you can choose to let the past constantly afflict and rust your future, or you can choose to love and be loved. To understand and know that just because it's time for a relationship to end or move in a different direction doesn't mean there isn't love.
Hate is all the love you had for someone coming out in frustration and anger, because without one there isn't the other.
In the end I'll choose to love, and I may never get it back in return, and that is perfectly fine, because I won't hold myself back, and I won't let my past get in my way, or anyone else's.
