CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Germany"

Once again I have to blog. Seems like depression is here, when my baby goes to work all I do is sit and think. I was so afraid to let somebody in, now I am scared to death to lose my heart. I have a song on my myspace page done by Peter Roy Project, I go to my page constantly just to hear the song. I will share the words............ MD --- Peter Roy Project Never knew how much I could love when it was Till the first day that I saw you My whole world changed will never be the same Now that I have you Beauty has never has been as true as it is everytime I look at you Sometimes the world escapes me lost in our love who could blame me for loving you as much as I do for loving you as much as I do loving you as much as I do Never knew how much I could love when it was Till the first day that I saw you My whole world changed will never be the same Now that I have you Never knew how much I could love when it was Till the first day that I saw you My whole world changed will never be the same Now that I have you Now that I have you Now that I have you Now that I have you --------------------------------- That song describes my world perfectly right now. I never knew how much I could love till I seen Rudi. I keep asking myself, if this is the truth, why do I feel so sad right now. The only answer that I can come up with is I know we are going to be separated for sometime. Sure 3 months doesnt seem that long, but to me, right now it seems like a lifetime. I have only been in Germany for 2 months and a week, yet it feels like Rudi and I have been together forever. My soulmate he is! As I blogged earlier he is my perfect man. Someone that has allowed me to be me, not tried to change me in anyway and loves me unconditional. I want the whole world to know what I feel about you Rudi! So many thoughts go through my mind, and there is no way I could type them all out, but one thing for certain is that I love you more then the world itself. I have never been happier in any relationship that I was ever in, you make me feel equal and you definately complete me! Ok enough of my ramblings for now! --T