Is it just me, or have the past two weeks been extremely bizarre?
It seems all is odd with the world. I look at the lives of my friends and see the different struggles they've gone through in the past couple of weeks.
One is facing a divorce from a husband who was too controlling. One is coming to terms with mental illness. One lost his bread-winning job, in which the bread was becoming harder to come by in the first place. Others are plagued by injury, family illness, stress, job woes, relationships and every other ailment imaginable.
Me? Every day I struggle with anxiety. And I know it is something that I can either blame things on or that I can work to change. But I also know that deep down, these are characteristics that will be in me forever. The people in my life can choose to accept it or move on.
I look at my life and I know that, above all, it is good. I have friends. I have a wonderful family. And life throws me punches all the time.
Life throws all of us punches at one time or another. That is why we have each other.
Perhaps it's just the wintry months that bring everyone down. The skies have been dreary. The snow and ice and harsh weather conditions keep us trapped in our homes for who knows how long. And the ways in which we communicate are via technological advances that remain impersonal while staying under the guise of bringing us closer.
But Spring is coming. And with it is new life and new chances. There are always things to look forward to. Every day is a challenge. Right now there's a part of me that would still like to live in sadness and anxiety, but I know in my soul that I can't.
I'm not even a "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade" kinda gal.
My best friend says, "When life hands you a lemon, suck it."
One time I saw a Shoebox Greeting card in which Maxine the old bathrobed lady said, "When life hands you lemons, tuck 'em inside your bra! Couldn't hurt. Might help."
Anyway.
I wrote that because I knew there were so many things in our life that totally fucking sucked. We can either dwell on them or laugh them off. I'm still dwelling on a few things.
Like how AWESOME my friends feel when I say, "Can we talk? I'm scared!"
Anyway.
If life's been giving you a handful of crap cards lately, feel free to share here. Or not. Whatevah.
