I just lost one of the most important people in my life I am so crushed and hurt and now i lost another ver important person....one by death....one by pure i don't know what to call it...i'm so hurt i was fin dealin gwith the first now i just can't do this I dont know wht to do what do i do the pain has intensified....i dont think i spellled that righ tbut i dont care.....im going crazy everything was great andnow all of a sudden its not....my world has just turned upside down....i love my children but im not happy ......I feel really bad for that....not sure why Im doing this but i need someone to talk to me.....some who is not going to tell me everything is goingto be ok i dont want to hear that.....the messed up part in it all i knew he was going to die....and I said nothing......i said nothing.....nothing...why didnt i say anything...something.....maybe because they never listened to me anyway...bye.. im sorry.....ilove you and I will miss you....and im sorry im so sorry.....bye
