pete's blog: "the world today"

well once again i have to say that altough drunk i can say i have one of the worst nights again when will i learn .... never it seems why cant i find a normal person to fall in love with not one who is engaged and sleeps around getting off with every guy in the pub she says she loves me and boy i really love her but when she goes out the back for a qiuckie what the hell am i meant to do ?/ now she is texting the manager of the bar and started hitting on the bar staff too i could just go insane some say i have i lost over a stone in weight in just 3 weeks and am now iin danger of losing my job over her i have no idea what to do im a nice guy maybe thats where im going wrong i have no idea all i want is her what is so wrong with that but i have no idea what i can do i am so in love and she says she loves me too but then she ges and has a night like this i am so confused about it all anyway back to crying myself to sleep tp x

Hey, I know you probably don't want to know me right now but I have to tell you this: I'm sorry you had to find out the way you did, but, to be honest-this wasn't the first you knew of it was it now? I told you in the Cafe over a choc-chip muffin ffs. It has had time to try and sink in. I know we have had our up & downs-honey, our friendship isn't gonna go away (on my part) just cause I'm getting married. I value you and want you in my life!!! You're an awesome mate!! I want you there as you're special to me (believe it or not). It's up to you hun, the balls in your court. Love Yah well the story of my life , friends lol never mind

after the shortest engagemtn in history about 36hrs she has said shes not giving the ring back even though she is now engaged to some one else she really did take me for a fool

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not sure why i can the the world but i cant tell her i hate my gf im sorry my ex gf bitch she has said to me tonight that she never loved me and that even though she said it and wrote it and told other people she loved me she never did she has told me by msn that its all over and that shes got engaged to someone else but i have an invite to wedding, how nice :( my track record with women is the worst i have ever known let me think donna made pregnant by two different men, tiffany, the least said the better, sue, by her own admission only in it for my money, sarah was a mistake and we both acccept that :( and joanna the only one i think i ever loved and never told she was my first and in experience showed and now the bitch (aj) just as well i found out now , still at least she addmited she was in it for the money too hell of a day

this is how a girl ive been seeing just dumped me in the most spectacular why ever known!!! [22:13] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: hiya [22:14] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): hey.... [22:14] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): gimmie ur bebo luv [22:15] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: ok [22:27] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: ok a little bebo luv done [22:28] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): coool [22:30] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): have u seen my status update ? [22:31] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: yeah :( not much i can do though :( [22:33] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): ..... [22:33] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): is that all u have to say? [22:34] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: well im a little upset and would prefer you werent and you were here with me [22:35] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: im not sure what you want I LOVE you im not sure thats enough [22:36] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: with out ranting and losing my temper i dont know what else to say [22:36] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): go for it [22:41] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: why?? you have no idea how much i love you and want to be with you you obviously care a great deal for both of us but i feel im losing out and hes getting all your love :( i dont know how to win your heart i try but looks like i failing :( sometimes you anoy me but cant stay mad at you , one look form you and just by smileing you make it all better again [22:41] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): annoy you? i.e? [22:42] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: like wasting £20 calling your god damn bf and then wiping all the messages ever think that one or two of them might be important [22:43] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): A: you sed i cud call people and B: i didn't realize i did sorry [22:46] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: you sent over 100 text and nearly an hour on the phone but look thats all history yes im mad but thats it i can get the important ones back i supposed i was just suprised [22:47] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): you sed i cud!!!!!! [22:48] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: yes i know im not having a go .. i dont know ... just suprised that all [22:48] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): about the txts or my engagement? [22:49] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: well lets put it this way the text are way down on the list you being engaged is at the top [22:49] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: your engagment was a HUGE suprise [22:49] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): well ur welcome 2 come if u like [22:49] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: come where [22:50] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): wedding [22:50] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: hells no i couldnt stand it id be happy for you but devasted [22:51] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): please, it would mean so much [22:52] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: ok i care for you so much right now im crying if you want me there ill be a t the back hiding in the cornet [22:54] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: like i said earlier i lost the fight for you not sure what i culd have done i love you but thats wasnt enough [22:55] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: but at least i had one weekend with you hope you liked camden and insani thats what ill have to hang on to for the memories with tyou [22:56] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): do you think we're gonna stop being mates cos hunni we aint [22:56] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: i know just going to take a little time to sink in] [22:58] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): just read your letter [22:58] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: lol [22:58] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): lol? [22:59] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: doesnt sem to matter now what ever i wrote [23:01] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: is there anything i coul dhave done that would have stoped you getting engaged? [23:02] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): honestly-? i don't think so [23:04] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: well i hope your happy together i really do, you know why becuse thats the kind of guy i am [23:04] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: i just dunno what else to say [23:05] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: when is it [23:05] (*)AJ(*)Every parting is a form of death and every reunion is a type of heaven(L): this year hopefully [23:05] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: ok [23:06] (~) Peter (F) missing AJ lonely but not alone: im going to miss your hugs

ok for all those that know me and talk to me you know im a goth and love all kinds of odd msic and lifestyles how ever sometimes my life clashes with that of work and weekend me :( work me wins :( i pays the bills anyway what a night its been for me lots of highs followed by the lows why just tell me why i should date girls/women they drive me insane !!!! i fall for one and they go and let me down of act stupid ie getting pregnant by two different guys or getting engaged to some one else hell thats twice now some one tell me why i should bother any more?!?

ok my life is odd read previous blogs to find out more tonight i have had a great time right up until the point where someone that i have been seeing lost her mobile phone espcailly as we had gone to london for the day camden the palace houses of paliment the works lots of pics on the phone some idiot stole it from a place where i been a dj and where my best friends now work we looked through the cctv and asked everyone if they had seen it and they all said NO! crying in my arms she couldnt get over the fact she had lost it and nothing i did helped well eventually i got her in a taxi and home after an hours walk home very very drunk i now write this to you only to find when i get in she had it all along in her clevage !?!? wtf so not only has the evening been ruined by the mare but also i now have to write to everyone involved and explain what went on !! grrrr!! and all she can say is sorry how the hell do you miss a phone in your clevage !?! rant over , why do i date the 'special ones' someone out there must be ok ok ok ill shut up now take care have fun and ill take to you soon pete x

wemt out today and blew a fwe dolars on a 'few beers' lots of fun was had by all especzailly me and the girl i took home and then a fun taxci back lol still a good night night in an oujt hoipe you all had lots of fun tooo :D

this week saw the start of the financial year for the comapny that i work for, and i was runner up for employee of the month... which was nice ive been the runner up before in march and won employee of the month last december, but when they came to hand out emplyee of the year i was third, THIRD, what do you have to do to win ?!?!? rant over have a great weekend!!