She sat there quietly unsure of what to even say to him as he stood there infront of her. She could see how horribly hurt he felt and for all the pain she has caused him but she could not take it back so softly she said...
"I'm sorry Petie okie are you happy i am sorry it's not like half the time i see the re-action from my own actions because when i walk out that door i don't see you for days and weeks at a time"
*See Steph thats the problem you dont ever see what you are doing to me all you see is the end result of how you kill me from the inside and then you wonder why i dont bother to try and see you? Why would i try and see the person who left me crying in my bed in the dark but like you even care about that right*
"You make it seem like i dont care about you petie and that isnt the case its just that i dont know what i want how can you expect me to at this stage of the game how can you even know what you want how can you act like you know when no one really knows right away"
*No see thats where you and me are different Steph because i am different, I've known since the moment i first laid eyes on you in my heart i knew but your too busy playing across the creek with the sad depressing movie star wanna be to ever see how much i love you and how much no matter how many times you crush my soul i am doomed to continue to love you and that Steph is love unconditional unwavering love and you just ignore that part dont you*
"I Don't ignore it you make me sound like some ditzy drama queen wannabe and im nothing like that so don't even attempt to go there with me Pete because that's not how i am"
*Yes Steph yeah it is because all you do is go between me and Codey thats all you do, you go and be with him and come here and tell me your hopes and dreams and then do the oppisit if your with me for one split second before going back to him and you know what i wont do it anymore Steph i wont*
*I deserve alittle more then that no wait i deserve alot more then that i deserve to be loved and cared for and i deserve to not get crushed like an insect under someones boot just because there is a change in the winds and that's what you do and i wont do it anymore i have feelings too and i wants and needs and im tired of ignoring them simply because you come running to me because of him,
So make a choice soon Steph because if its him then i can't keep doing this my heart just isn't able to take it anymore. I can only be broken so many times before i am unfixable. And i deserve alittle happieness in my life so make a choice.... It's me or it's him but it can't be both not anymore*
"You know this isnt fair to me i don't see how you can tell me i need to make a choice i mean... he's part of my past he's part of my childhood and then... theres you and your part of my life now. That's just not fair because i can't choose not right now that's just impossible because i don't know where my heart is going anymore and if i did do you think i'd always be so confused as to run back and forth between two different guys?"
* I don't know Steph i don't know but all i do know is i can't be a part of this high school drama act anymore. Either we have a future or we don't and if we don't then i need to go and make a better life for myself because like this Steph like how i am right now i will not be able to ever be happy because i am going to forever be sitting here waiting for the girl from across the creek to look up and see me and tell me she loves me as much as i have loved her. I don't want to throw my life away hoping for something that will never be so you need to choose and if you can't choose... Then i will because i can't do this anymore Steph and more importantly.... I wont
